Is there ever such thing as a 'reason to live'? At least I don't have one. There is nothing in my life to look forward to - even if there is, I don't want to hold onto something as uncertain as the future because it's only going to give me false hope and disappoint me.
I try to think about the people I love, but in the end I have to give in to my selfishness, discard them from the picture and can only focus on how I really crave to die. And of course, depression has left me devoid of interests. So I don't have anything I like to do enough to live for.
It's all just pointless. Recovery for me is impossible due to many, many reasons. The only thing holding me back is my own survival instincts, that I always get scared when I'm attempting to act on my suicide plan.
I'd love if anyone could give me advice, or simply an encouragement...
I try to think about the people I love, but in the end I have to give in to my selfishness, discard them from the picture and can only focus on how I really crave to die. And of course, depression has left me devoid of interests. So I don't have anything I like to do enough to live for.
It's all just pointless. Recovery for me is impossible due to many, many reasons. The only thing holding me back is my own survival instincts, that I always get scared when I'm attempting to act on my suicide plan.
I'd love if anyone could give me advice, or simply an encouragement...