What do you guys do when you have low moments? I'm feeling incredibly low tonight, in pain, tired but can't sleep and just feel alone. My hubby is on shift till 1 am tobight then on brekkie shift and I will be in work before he gets back so I won't see him until Saturday now. This month has been incredibly hard. I feel anxious and scattered. I keep having horrible thoughts and not shaking them. I haven't felt like this in years since I was in my wheelchair like this last time. I just don't know where to turn. I don't have any close friends I feel like I can talk to. I have ehlors Dan Los syndrome and was managing it, I went back to work after years of being bed bound/ wheelchair bound and stuck, everything was great. We had another child and my body has just gave up. I have dislocated both hips and have gone back on two crutches a few months ago and last moth back in my chair. I'm getting every illness going with being run down, am in agony and just don't see an end. Now my back is getting bad again with being in my chair. I cant go back to being that person, sat in. Letting my girls down. I missed out on my first toddler years and now reliving that hell. I'm sat alone most nights with the hubby working crazy hours. I can't go out and socialise as I'm not mobile. I have been to and from from the hospital and now have to wait till the end of December to see the surgeon to find out if they can operate so in the mean time this is it. Sat in, house getting a mess as I can't do it all, my toddler frustrated and bored as I'm stuck with play times, my 8 year old spending most of the time a my mum's because I physically can't get her to school and then by the time my hubby gets back I'm too tired and in pain to be a good wife. Im not coping at all. I think I'm going to have to stop working now as well as its costing us more money in taxis and then I'm physically done in after the small amount of hours I'm doing and it takes two days to recover. I worked hard the last few years to get here and now it's slipping away. I'm in agony with my hips but can't take strong painkillers with having my baby with me. I'm so scared that something will happen and I won't be capable. I'm really sorry for whinging and moaning and I know a lot of people have it so much worse than me. I just needed to write it down and get it out.