I have a rubber chicken, no big deal there. I guess it's just something I'm insecure about. I even had a friend once who planned to see me, said he had everything ready and it would take a half hour to fly there. Well he cancelled at the last minute, I was so hurt I was weeping loudly for days at a time. This is when I was more affected by being hurt, I guess I'm more used to it now. So I think if people can't even travel that short distance, why would anyone else take the time to come and see me?