Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[Rhidia]

Just want gone. Family is all I have.

 

[Rhidia]

Feel physically sick with the heat, which keeps happening. Worse? I start suffering really badly with depression in great heat, like now. I just want it all to stop.

 

[cev77]

Feel physically sick with the heat, which keeps happening. Worse? I start suffering really badly with depression in great heat, like now. I just want it all to stop.

I hope you feel better soon. Yeah, the heat is crazy here too!

 

[cev77]

Yes, for most of the weekend, but it's passive. I'm not sure what to do anymore.

 

[Rhidia]

I hope you feel better soon. Yeah, the heat is crazy here too!

Thank you, me too. But the heat and depression and anxiety are a bad mix. I already want to go, they make it worse.

 

[cev77]

Thank you, me too. But the heat and depression and anxiety are a bad mix. I already want to go, they make it worse.

Yeah, that's definitely a bad mix. I hope you can find a reason to stay.

 

[Rhidia]

I am now being asked to check in once a month with the Jobcentre, as though lifelong mental health issues that once became so severe I spent almost a month in hospital will just "Go away". All because the UK government thinks people should be in work, as though we wouldn't be if we could be.

I have written evidence from doctors, counsellors and a psychiatrist I have been seeing for literally years I am not fit for work with my mental health issues. Why am I still here with this level of stupidity in this world?

 

[Angie]

Yes. It is all just too much.

Endless appointments. I am just not able to function.

 

[seabird]

I'm not feeling it but it'd be better if I was already dead

 

[AvidFan]

Yes. It is all just too much.

Endless appointments. I am just not able to function.

So sorry. I hope you can keep yourself safe. I wish just one thing could ease up for you. ❤️

 

[AvidFan]

I'm not feeling it but it'd be better if I was already dead

I'm sorry you're feeling this way @seabird. You are more precious than you think. I wish for some easing of your pain.

 

[AvidFan]

Not quite, today. It goes through my mind that it would just be a much simpler way to get rid of all the problems, but the intense urges I was having last week are not present, despite the insomnia.

 

[LumberJack]

Not really, just extremely frustrated and disappointed in my efforts to move towards healthy sleep/exercise/nutrition patterns. My eyeballs have been itching for a week, too. Probably due to forest fire smoke. I can't see it or smell it directly as sometimes I can, but the local news station is saying it could be bad for people with breathing problems. This would explain the sudden onset of lungs burning with the slightest amt of exercise too.

In short, not in this moment, but I'm losing my grip from accumulated stress.

 

[SillyOldBear]

God yes. I get worse every day. Can't even get the test I need to confirm the problem until mid-August. Then who knows when I can get to a specialist and start treatment. Our system is so fucked up. Don't know if I can deal with it. A method out is always within reach.

 

[LumberJack]

intrusive thoughts. You'd think I would have gotten used to them now, as I did with my 24/7 tinnitus that I've had since kindergarten (had an ear infection that ruptured the eardrum and tinnitus constantly ever since). The tinnitus doesn't bother me, but I will be making progress on my to-do list, and the thoughts come in and tell me that it's all hopeless so why try. Nobody really cares about me so no one would miss me, really. They might think so but after my exit they would soon forget about me. I know these are all lies. I guess I'm not strong enough yet to weather the constant negative brow beating I do to myself. Don't let it get me down? Sounds like a great idea - how?

 

[Road to Nowhere]

If there was a way out of this life within a nightmare. That I have not tried I would certainly consider it.

 

[iloverachel]

for any one who needs it

I hope your suffering eases and you feel more happiness, peace and joy

 

[LumberJack]

If I didn't feel constrained by my personal sense of morality and an effective med routine, I'd do it today. If not able to get a method, probably just improvise something.

 

[seabird]

I'm trying to help someone and listen and terrified I'm not enough

 

[Rhidia]

I'm trying to help someone and listen and terrified I'm not enough

You are enough, sometimes someone being willing to just sit down and listen to someone in a crisis helps. Sadly, many of the medical staff who are meant to help often aren't up to the job, I have tried a LOT to find some good one's.

As for me? Just want gone. But no easy way out without ruining everyone who cares about me...