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Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

seabird

seabird

meandering home
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@Lane I've been noticing it, purposely.
For me, fear or anxiety opens the door to the disfunctional loops. It's remarkable, though not in a good way, how a small thought turns to thousands. Metaphorically it's like adding sugar to warm water and yeast.
I'm sorry you know about it, what I'm reffering to Lane; and I send support in the hopes you remain free of the fear and depression.
 
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Here Then Gone

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This week many thoughts going through my mind from my past. Images of who I used to be compared to who I am now. Kind of like when they say your life flashes before your eyes feeling. I took a job at a pizza place recently that I used to work at 20 years ago, and I'm comparing myself then to now, it almost feels like going full circle. Two completely different people to the point I don't even recognize who I was back then.

There's also this feeling of numbness. Hurt me again, I don't care. Burn me, freeze me, cut me, abandon me, lie to me again, anger me, frighten me, make me feel small or like dirt, laugh at the freakish fool once more, whatever you want. Going over in my head my method, the place, saying to myself there's no more pain. Two people at work asked how I was doing. I could not tell them the truth, hid my face, and felt worse.
 
JanisSPK

JanisSPK

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Here Then Gone said:
This week many thoughts going through my mind from my past. Images of who I used to be compared to who I am now. Kind of like when they say your life flashes before your eyes feeling. I took a job at a pizza place recently that I used to work at 20 years ago, and I'm comparing myself then to now, it almost feels like going full circle. Two completely different people to the point I don't even recognize who I was back then.

There's also this feeling of numbness. Hurt me again, I don't care. Burn me, freeze me, cut me, abandon me, lie to me again, anger me, frighten me, make me feel small or like dirt, laugh at the freakish fool once more, whatever you want. Going over in my head my method, the place, saying to myself there's no more pain. Two people at work asked how I was doing. I could not tell them the truth, hid my face, and felt worse.
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*brohug
 
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