Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[SillyOldBear]

Yes. I so very badly want this life to end. I can only see things getting worse and worse. I hate it!

 

[cev77]

Yes. I so very badly want this life to end. I can only see things getting worse and worse. I hate it!

if okay. I’m sorry to hear things are so hard right now.

 

[I_waste_everything]

Not suicidal, but disgusted at myself and wishing þis ruined attempt would terminate. I'm humiliated and stained. I ruined everyþing

 

[may71]

Life was kind for a long time. In one tragic moment everything changed.

That's awful, I'm sorry. I'm glad life was kind for a long time, but it's still awful.

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[1964dodge]

Yes. I so very badly want this life to end. I can only see things getting worse and worse. I hate it!

i understand barb, i really do. all i can say is the more that life fucks us as we age we need to fight harder to make life worth living. please keep trying to find fulfillment and joy no matter how small until you get to go home. you got through today, now you are 1 day closer to going home.

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

i'm thinking more and more about it . i am safe for now. i do not want to commit suicide, actually don't really want to die but even i have my limits

mike

 

[Pebble mouse]

I feel like I'm spiralling, and I'm not sure I want it to stop. Yes, I am.

 

[SillyOldBear]

i'm thinking more and more about it . i am safe for now. i do not want to commit suicide, actually don't really want to die but even i have my limits

mike

Glad to see you are able to pop in for a few minutes. But wish you felt better, much better. But glad you are safe, at least for now. I don't really want to commit suicide either, but I do want to die.

 

[Rhidia]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

Thank you, always need hugs. Would go right now.

 

[Windhover]

I'm not, it's just I don't know if there's life left what with the broken bits, the lack of self.

 

[I_waste_everything]

I'm not, it's just I don't know if there's life left what with the broken bits, the lack of self.

Þis post, specifically, is how I feel too, at least by much overlap.

I know your specifics are much sunder þan mine, but by þis one sentence I feel so similar.

For what it's worþ from me, I'm wishing you signs pointing you to þe self you seek and to lasting happinesses; and safety, strength, luck, and comfort, where and when you can find hīem, in þe meantime. And ever onward.

 

[Rhidia]

I just feel worthless. Too psychologically damaged to work, have tried many times. Elderly parents having to support me towards the ends of their lives. Spent a LOT of years working REALLY hard to try and get somewhere, become something? Just failed...

 

[I_waste_everything]

I just feel worthless. Too psychologically damaged to work, have tried many times. Elderly parents having to support me towards the ends of their lives. Spent a LOT of years working REALLY hard to try and get somewhere, become something? Just failed...

I relate to þis, too.

 

[1964dodge]

yes very much so, takingas many pain meds as possible. i'm hopimg i make it through ok

mike

 

[Windhover]

@1964dodge You can make it through mike, at least I have to say I very much hope that it's the case.

 

[1964dodge]

@1964dodge You can make it through mike, at least I have to say I very much hope that it's the case.

i will most likely make it. i asked my wife to go home and she said i have to wait until god calls me home. i don't know why i have to suffer this much pain. i took as many pain meds as i can safely take, mmj, and ibuprophen, and extra strength tylenon 2 each.

mike

 

[1964dodge]

I feel like I'm spiralling, and I'm not sure I want it to stop. Yes, I am.

i understand. just remember all the bad shitstorms in your life, bad as they were you eventually made it thriugh, i know you ill be ok

mike.....

 

[DarkNightshade]

Not at the moment. I still have this thought, lingering at the back of my mind, that I won't live very long though. But, one day at a time!

 

[AvidFan]

Not as much today. Still there but has climbed down from being an imminent imperative. It reduces when I can get some rest, and have been resting today. Unfortunately I have some very difficult and demanding days coming up. I hope I survive!