kinda.
i just wanna cut,
i did on my tummy and didn't tell the one person who i was supposed to tell
i only did it because i was bored.
however i went on top of my friend's roof today and invisioned myself jumping off and people calling 911, but that's not my fault because my friend's brother told her that it could happen which is why i needed to have my cell phone on me. >.>
I'm not sure whats wrong with me.... I'm basically walking around in a strange kind of dazed feeling at work...having myself convinced that this will be my last shift and nobody at my job will ever see me again. I think I may have finally given up. I'm just so exhausted physically and mentally. I have an hour and a half left here and I'm not sure whats going to happen once I leave.
I feel extremely suicidal today. :sad: I can't function well of focus well. I've been getting screwed over for months now. I just want to leave for good now, I'm sleeping with my combat knife tonight for comfort.
I don't know what to say, but I tried tonight, I won't say how but it did not involve drugs.
I stopped midway, I got terrified of what would happen, also if I did try it might but fail it might alleviate somewhat, it hasn't but I'm also fearful of dying.
I'm not sure whats wrong with me.... I'm basically walking around in a strange kind of dazed feeling at work...having myself convinced that this will be my last shift and nobody at my job will ever see me again. I think I may have finally given up. I'm just so exhausted physically and mentally. I have an hour and a half left here and I'm not sure whats going to happen once I leave.
kinda.
i just wanna cut,
i did on my tummy and didn't tell the one person who i was supposed to tell
i only did it because i was bored.
however i went on top of my friend's roof today and invisioned myself jumping off and people calling 911, but that's not my fault because my friend's brother told her that it could happen which is why i needed to have my cell phone on me. >.>
hi taylor :hug: i hope you feel better soon
please try and distract yourself somehow so you don't feel the need to cut
:arms: if you ever need to talk, don't hesitate to PM me any time okay :heart:
triggs xx
a little.. my friends are round
one will not stop talking about herself but i don't mind because i think i'm in love with her
and one has just found out she's pregnant
i feel insignificant and useless and just a burden to my friends.
but i don't want to do it while they'r here
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