Hiya Deety. To be honest, this sounds like you've done exactly the right thing. I often go to my counselling with an idea of what I want to talk about but sometimes something completely different comes out. When I try to correct it, my counselor stops me and asks more about what I was saying. That's the beauty of therapy, the most important things tend to come out when they need to. If your son was on your mind then that's what needed to be said. Take your time, the deeper feelings will come out when they're ready and you're feeling more comfortable. The feelings of not deserving before hand you already know are coming, so at least they're not a shock to you. Hopefully, as you settle into it, they'll start to fade; but bring those up with the therapist when you can, it'd be a great place to start as it's not too deep but does touch on your underlying issues. As for not feeling deserving of our time, I've got to agree completely with @Winter Blues . There's no pressure, but don't ever feel like you can't post here; you are just as worthy of this space as anyone and we care for you. If you weren't deserving we wouldn't be asking about it. Also, I don't know your entire story yet, but if you want to talk about your concerns over your son I'm all ears and eyes. You're doing great, just try to look forward to next weeks session rather than dreading it.