I know this is completely crazy, but I came out of a failed relationship over six months ago, and since we broke up I've felt increasingly suicidal, I've felt this way for months, it's not getting any better. I was absolutely devastated. It might have been okay but he broke off all contact and wouldn't even be friends. It's losing the emotional bond that hurts the most. I cared and do care about him really deeply, and what hurts is that he doesn't care at all. He's happily moved on psychologically. It's so cruel and he's been so manipulative. We went out for years and he kept going on about a future and family and children and a home together. When I said I couldn't see a future without him he said you'll be okay, have a nice day.