I don't know where to go in order to not cry or feel bad. Inside my house I am sad but when I walk around outside to try and clear my mind I still keep crying. I'm worried I might start being seen as the crazy person who always walks around for hours crying. I wish I had more to occupy my time, this unemployment is so difficult. I want to be alone yet want someone to talk to. Every time someone talks to me I want to cry. I want relief from feeling like this, this is what drives me to become suicidal. It has been a long week of feeling like this. I want to get in my car and go somewhere but I don't trust myself to drive. Lost and hopeless is what I feel right now and it is so painful.