suicidal thougths

I want to be able minded enough to have the mental age of a fully grown adult without struggling to act and think like one - even though I'm not fit or capable enough to avoid having my brain disability get in the way of daily living and everything else in life! I'm not even mentally capable...

okay, it is really hard for me to say so i thought typing it out would help... I hate my life. not in an angsty teen way, i just don't really feel like i want to be around anymore. i have made so many lists trying to find positives in my life and reasons to not try to end everything...but i can...

I don't know where to go in order to not cry or feel bad. Inside my house I am sad but when I walk around outside to try and clear my mind I still keep crying. I'm worried I might start being seen as the crazy person who always walks around for hours crying. I wish I had more to occupy my time...

I am new here and just needed somewhere to write my feelings where I wouldn't be judged. Tears keep falling out of my eyes. I know I am not going to do anything and I don't want to but the thought is there and it hurts so badly. Just hoping that when I wake up tomorrow the feeling will go away...

I'd like to unload a bit, if that's okay. I'm about 2.5 years into a depression that feels like it's just taken over my life. It sucks to put it mildly. I'm nearing my 40's and on the outside, have a good thing going on. Married with 2 kids, nice house, good job etc etc. It's on the...