I’m so mad at myself. I’ve started smoking again. At the moment I have no motivation to stop. Uggh.
I know all too well how you feel....as the number of times I tried to quit before it "stuck" are so so many.
I'm not sure why but a combination of the following worked for me
1) called up the California I quit place - they called me daily and then spaced it out more...made me feel accountable but without IRL pressure
2) did adult coloring books whenever wanted a cigarette or my "normal times" e.g. after dinner, morning coffee--I did a lot of them needless to say--but since didn't replace with food didn't gain weight;
3) wore patches and gradated down (told myself would have very harmful effects if smoked while wearing patch)-off them now; 4) took Wellbutrin- off it now;
5) picked special day my husband's birthday but didn't tell him or anyone else; 5) started swimming every morning;.
6) realized money would save which was important due to resignation from job
7) put last empty pack on my desk...with date quit and made hash tag every night before went to bed. Still have that on my desk..
So haven't smoked since March 28th. But admit when couple moved back for winter behind us and they both smoke all the time is always a test...and glad had never smoked with them and had quit for several months before they came back.
So first don't beat yourself up as if I can do it anyone can....so sending you positive thoughts... and never hesitate to keep posting as you are in very good company