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What are you thinking about?
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Glad to say mosquito bite itchiness finally stopped yesterday lol.
What I’m thinking about now is trying to decide when to sleep and when to go out today. Would be better to get out very early, like right when the store opens. Gonna be pretty warm today so don’t want to be out walking in the blazing hot sun (with very little shade!) in the afternoon. Also trying to decide whether to try to get laundry done today too, or to just do it tomorrow instead.
What I’m thinking about now is trying to decide when to sleep and when to go out today. Would be better to get out very early, like right when the store opens. Gonna be pretty warm today so don’t want to be out walking in the blazing hot sun (with very little shade!) in the afternoon. Also trying to decide whether to try to get laundry done today too, or to just do it tomorrow instead.
How extremely upset and pissed off I am feeling about some very stupid nonsense. I don’t even know what is more annoying - the bs nonsense itself, or the fact that I even give a damn about someone who is clearly just a complete clueless moron anyway. But ya, basically I read something that triggered me very badly, I had not been aware of it, but now that I am…well, I am definitely not remotely a fan of that person now, that is for damn sure. Wow.
^ Hey Unenthusiastic, not sure if you’ll have a chance to see this, but just wanted to say I hope you’ll be feeling better, more hopeful and happier soon. Feel free to talk more about what is going on (if you want) sometimes talking about it a bit can help. Sending lots of positive vibes your way, and also, if they’re wanted, big hugs as well 
What I’m thinking about is wondering if my friend’s friend will give me the computer for a bit of a better deal, when I’ll be able to get it, and if I’ll be able to find a decent deal on a monitor and keyboard as well.
Also still trying to decide what to get my sis for her bday, having a hard time with it this year for some reason. I still have over a month, but usually I get her bday present lots of months before her bday. Hoping she’ll text me back soon too, it sucks how rarely she texts me, sometimes the “being busy” excuse wears a bit thin, but whatever, need to just accept it I guess, somehow.
Also still trying to decide what to get my sis for her bday, having a hard time with it this year for some reason. I still have over a month, but usually I get her bday present lots of months before her bday. Hoping she’ll text me back soon too, it sucks how rarely she texts me, sometimes the “being busy” excuse wears a bit thin, but whatever, need to just accept it I guess, somehow.
If my friend will come over in about 4 hours from now so we can make a yummy stir fry for dinner, when my sis might text me back, and also starting to worry about her a bit. Hoping she’s ok, doesn’t really seem very happy these days from what I can tell.
I finally decided on some bday gifts for my sis though at least, so I’m glad to not have to worry about that anymore. Hoping she likes the books (yup, it’s a few different books lol).
I finally decided on some bday gifts for my sis though at least, so I’m glad to not have to worry about that anymore. Hoping she likes the books (yup, it’s a few different books lol).
Lots of things as always:
- When my friend will text or call me back
- Doing my best to not dread seeing my sis next week.
- Trying to stay calm in general but it being a bit of a struggle right now
- If there’s anything at all I can do to feel less dread about next week, and also be in a better mood in general.
- If anything truly exciting might be happening at any point for the remainder of this year (or my life, for that matter, lol) :p
- When my friend will text or call me back
- Doing my best to not dread seeing my sis next week.
- Trying to stay calm in general but it being a bit of a struggle right now
- If there’s anything at all I can do to feel less dread about next week, and also be in a better mood in general.
- If anything truly exciting might be happening at any point for the remainder of this year (or my life, for that matter, lol) :p
How relieved I am that our trip will be much shorter tomorrow. Also way less stressful not having to do the 3 transferring bs things. Now it will just be 1 bus, a car ride and the ferry to get to my sis’s. I really need the visit to go well and just be relaxing and low key, so I very much hope that it is.
That the sis visit went much better than I thought, that I didn’t have another outburst again like I did in May, that I was far more self aware, as exhausting and challenging as that can be, I think it also helped me be more in the moment and also more careful about things in general. I was usually able to catch if I was starting to become triggered by stuff, but instead of getting mad at myself for whatever my feelings were, I made myself accept and deal with them in the moment.
Also thinking about my grandpa being a bit on the strange and grumpy side. Sure is hard to talk to, who knows what that’s about. I’ve seen him telling very lively, funny and fun stories to people before, but he rarely does that with me. No idea why because I am always asking him to tell me about that kind of stuff.
Anyway, doing my best to just not go there cos who the heck knows. He’s quite odd and always has been, not the most social of people and has very few friends. Was nice of him to drive us home though so just need to stay feeling grateful for that and not focus on how hard he is to talk to. Some people have the natural ability to keep a convo going in an easy and effortless way, and some really do not. Just how it is.
Also thinking about my grandpa being a bit on the strange and grumpy side. Sure is hard to talk to, who knows what that’s about. I’ve seen him telling very lively, funny and fun stories to people before, but he rarely does that with me. No idea why because I am always asking him to tell me about that kind of stuff.
Anyway, doing my best to just not go there cos who the heck knows. He’s quite odd and always has been, not the most social of people and has very few friends. Was nice of him to drive us home though so just need to stay feeling grateful for that and not focus on how hard he is to talk to. Some people have the natural ability to keep a convo going in an easy and effortless way, and some really do not. Just how it is.
Thank you, I appreciate that Ya, I think it was less stressful this time overall. Sis didn’t bring up any “nagging” type of stuff so that was really nice. Felt much more like a mini vacation, so that was great.
Lol ya my grandpa does seem a bit like a grumpy old man I guess, maybe that’s all it is :p I used to think that was a bit of a harsh term, but wow there definitely do seem to be some of them where it’s actually a pretty accurate description.
Ya, I think it was less stressful this time overall. Sis didn’t bring up any “nagging” type of stuff so that was really nice. Felt much more like a mini vacation, so that was great. Lol ya my grandpa does seem a bit like a grumpy old man I guess, maybe that’s all it is :p I used to think that was a bit of a harsh term, but wow there definitely do seem to be some of them where it’s actually a pretty accurate description.
My friend and whether I should go over there in the morn to give him some DVD’s we don’t want and to help him out with some stuff.
Besides that, also just doing my best to stay positive and hopeful about Christmas this year despite definitely not looking forward to seeing my odd, unpleasant and kinda grumpy grandpa. It’s sad that he’s become that way cos it wasn’t always the case. Guess it’s just old age and/or some kind of deep misery, who knows. He was always a bit odd though.
Besides that, also just doing my best to stay positive and hopeful about Christmas this year despite definitely not looking forward to seeing my odd, unpleasant and kinda grumpy grandpa. It’s sad that he’s become that way cos it wasn’t always the case. Guess it’s just old age and/or some kind of deep misery, who knows. He was always a bit odd though.
