I deliberately avoided checking anything on the house on the way back from my walk. I know there are problems. But recently I've thought "I'll just check everything's OK", glanced at things, seen something else that looks like a problem, spiralled, and ruined my weekend. I'm trying to get it sorted - painfully, and slowly, with lying, scammy, flaky tradespeople overrunning the entire country - but I don't need to get myself caught in another anxiety loop today. Fuck that right now, my nervous system needs some downtime.