It definitely matters and makes a big (positive!) difference when you’re around, but I understand feeling that way cos I also sometimes think that way about myself too. Self-confidence is a very hard and challenging thing a lot of the time. That’s great that you try to pace yourself/not do too much at once too, it’s much better, healthier and more balanced than pushing yourself way beyond what you feel up for doing. I definitely wonder sometimes with people who often get migraines if that’s not maybe part of what causes people to get them.
Lol I love that you “call it like you see it” and that you think my stepmother (I often refer to her as “stepwench” lol, not to her face of course, barely ever see her anyway thank god lol) sounds like one of those evil stepmothers from a fairy tale. My dad’s friend who saw how horrible she was to me, and how I was always cleaning (trying to keep her in a “good mood” as much as I possibly could, not that it helped the miserable thing most of the time lol) and nicknamed me “cinderella” lol always thought that was kinda funny, despite the messed up/unjust as hell situation of it all of course.
Anyway thanks for your compassion about that I appreciate it a lot

I highly doubt she’ll ever magically morph into someone who has much capacity for compassion but who knows, miracles do happen every day after all.
Sorry to hear about those various problems with the kitties that have been going on, aw poor things between getting sick, having the fleas and the one that keeps vanishing to some mystery hiding place. Hope they’ll all be ok, healthy and flea free soon

Aw you’re so sweet, kind and caring with saying how you wouldn’t be able to sleep cos of being worried about them, I hope you were able to sleep enough at least though. I understand about them feeling like pets to you even though you don’t technically own them, I always feel so much love for any animals I spend time with (even ones I just see when out walking for that matter, lol!) so ya I definitely get that. Aw that’s cute that one was watching the screen earlier and you said she was reading it. It’d be so cute and funny if kitties and animals could read, I’d sit with my kitty and look through books every night with her if she could read
I hope the thing you have and the itchiness passes soon too, and also that the kitties’ fleas will be gone soon. Our kitty had them when we first got her back in July 2019, then had them again a few months later. We finally did get rid of the evil things, took a LOT of baths and applying this flea cream stuff we got. Was such a relief when they were finally gone for sure.