I'm done seeking help for this disorder. People (medical/psychiatric proffesionals) focus exclusively on the fact that I have BPD, but i also have Major Depressive Disorder, Panic Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and complex, compounded PTSD. In fact, I'm almost done seeking mental health help, period. I'll still see my shrink for meds, but I am completely and thoroughly done with CBT and DBT. More and more, I'm thinking BPD is a diagnosis given when they actually don't know what is wrong with you, and/or are unwilling to admit that they don't know know how to help you. It's kind of like a doctor saying something is idiopathic in origin-that is simply professional speak for "we actually know f*** all, but we have to come back and tell you something, so idiopathic, it is. You're not even treated like a human half the time if you have this disorder. And I'm tired of being told that I'm not trying hard enough, that I simply must use more coping techniques, (when others like my therapist have already praised my (their words) extraordinary coping techniques), and to essentially just grin and bare it. They wonder about my need to sometimes be frequently hospitalized, and criticize it. Reality is, they started throwing me in the psych ward when I was 7 years old, and if I total it, I have probably spent a total of about 4 years in psychiatric wards. So, how did I get institutionalized?? I wonder. They completely refuse to acknowledge their complicit role in creating dependency.
