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Borderline Personality Disorder | What is BPD? | Signs of BPD

dandelions

me
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I'm sorry I'm just trying to save my life - it's just an old man's life. It's almost done anyway so doesn't really matter if I don't know how to behave. Basically my existense is inapproptiina bc I'm harsh and of non specified motives so I give the appearance of danger when I just need and try to get a little peace in here. It's never gonna come. Just need some rest and friendship. Don't come easily in this world
 

Aurelia

πŸ”₯ A Fire Inside πŸ”₯
SF Supporter
I'm sorry I'm just trying to save my life - it's just an old man's life. It's almost done anyway so doesn't really matter if I don't know how to behave. Basically my existense is inapproptiina bc I'm harsh and of non specified motives so I give the appearance of danger when I just need and try to get a little peace in here. It's never gonna come. Just need some rest and friendship. Don't come easily in this world
You do matter. Regardless of age, I think most mental health "professionals" just don't know what the fuck they're doing and don't deserve to have their degrees. There need to be some serious changes in clinical and hospital settings regarding mental health treatment.
 

dandelions

me
SF Supporter
You do matter. Regardless of age, I think most mental health "professionals" just don't know what the fuck they're doing and don't deserve to have their degrees. There need to be some serious changes in clinical and hospital settings regarding mental health treatment.
Right now I'm in danger of spiraling. Maybe I might yet again find a nother bit of strength but it's easy to see strength is of no use. So spiraling may be the way to go
 

Aurelia

πŸ”₯ A Fire Inside πŸ”₯
SF Supporter
Every thing sucks. Everything else is shit. Trying to find any treatment is a joke if they are dead set against helping me. I'm feeble and need help. Or let society discard things like me. Drain on society
I agree with you about treatment. Good treatment is very hard to find. What sorts of treatment have you tried so far?
 

Aurelia

πŸ”₯ A Fire Inside πŸ”₯
SF Supporter
This fucking shit refuses to release me from its grasp. Every day it's the same shit:

Content, depressed, pissed off, anxious, suicidal, empty, content, depressed, pissed off, anxious, suicidal, empty, content, depressed, anxious, suicidal, empty....

Fuck. Just kill me already for fuck's sake...
 

dandelions

me
SF Supporter
This fucking shit refuses to release me from its grasp. Every day it's the same shit:

Content, depressed, pissed off, anxious, suicidal, empty, content, depressed, pissed off, anxious, suicidal, empty, content, depressed, anxious, suicidal, empty....

Fuck. Just kill me already for fuck's sake...
Please, I experience something pretty similar. I have a feeling which I will not be at all surprised if you say is worthless, but I do feel there is a solution. I'm not expecting to meet you in person or any particular BPD person but I think we all need to work on it together. Like "for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction" so that when content comes around for, say, you, the others have to behave/react in a particular other way. Then correspondingly if it's pissed off, then the others move to a different behavior. These responses are not random but thought about, tested, and so on. It's not your spouces thinking "oh here we go again". It needs to be a form of therapy. And a routine. I know I understand I'm just a Looney who believes in demons, but I also know I sat in a room for 4 years and got nowhere. Who is trying anything new?
 

Aurelia

πŸ”₯ A Fire Inside πŸ”₯
SF Supporter
Please, I experience something pretty similar. I have a feeling which I will not be at all surprised if you say is worthless, but I do feel there is a solution. I'm not expecting to meet you in person or any particular BPD person but I think we all need to work on it together. Like "for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction" so that when content comes around for, say, you, the others have to behave/react in a particular other way. Then correspondingly if it's pissed off, then the others move to a different behavior. These responses are not random but thought about, tested, and so on. It's not your spouces thinking "oh here we go again". It needs to be a form of therapy. And a routine. I know I understand I'm just a Looney who believes in demons, but I also know I sat in a room for 4 years and got nowhere. Who is trying anything new?
I'm sorry. My brain seems to not be working properly. I'm not sure I understand the point of what you're saying. Can you explain a bit more?
 

dandelions

me
SF Supporter
I think a good word would be counterbalance. When you feel one way, your group (whoever they be) responds in an opposite way to help move you into a different state of emotion. I think that when a BPD person says something, the regular people respond in a typical way that throws the BPD person off balance. (we respond to other people's response to us and since their response is not good we are thrown into chaos). Does that make sense?
 

Aurelia

πŸ”₯ A Fire Inside πŸ”₯
SF Supporter
I think a good word would be counterbalance. When you feel one way, your group (whoever they be) responds in an opposite way to help move you into a different state of emotion. I think that when a BPD person says something, the regular people respond in a typical way that throws the BPD person off balance. (we respond to other people's response to us and since their response is not good we are thrown into chaos). Does that make sense?
Yes, it makes sense. However, the fluctuations aren't always caused by how other people act or react. Oftentimes, they're just caused by my own thinking processes.
 

dandelions

me
SF Supporter
Then wouldn't you need the involvement of a person or people who are trained and aware of all your states but are much more than a 45 minute 9 to 5er? And are also like you?
 

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