BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My mom is drinking again, and my therapist wants me to separate myself from her, because of course I want to drink again. My mom told me to go move in with a friend, but I have no friends here. The closest friends I have are thousands of miles away and in different countries, and I doubt they would let me stay with them. So it sucks that I'm kind of at an impasse again.

 

[Aurelia]

If you're looking for amazing, then I'm not a good candidate. lol

Oh, would you stop with that shit lol...

You just need to figure out that whole polyamourous thing of yours and then give me a call lol.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Oh, would you stop with that shit lol...

You just need to figure out that whole polyamourous thing of yours and then give me a call lol.

Well if you decide you just want me, then you can give me a call too. lol

 

[Aurelia]

Well if you decide you just want me, then you can give me a call too. lol

I would just want you, that's the thing. I only started looking again because I was unsure where you stood. But if I knew you wouldn't get a crush on anyone else while being with me, then of course I wouldn't do that.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I would just want you, that's the thing. I only started looking again because I was unsure where you stood. But if I knew you wouldn't get a crush on anyone else while being with me, then of course I wouldn't do that.

Ok, just wanted to make sure where I stand, because I'm at that point in my life where I would want something serious. I'm old now, after all. lol

 

[Aurelia]

Ok, just wanted to make sure where I stand, because I'm at that point in my life where I would want something serious. I'm old now, after all. lol

Well, yeah...lol I'm not trying to call you over to play checkers, here, haha. It would be serious. I just need that reassurance from you first in order to proceed is what I'm trying to say.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I was thinking that I wouldn't use certain methods if I ended it, because someone has to clean it up. I would be like "That's the cleaning crew's job" but I'm not that callous, I know it would affect them anyway. And almost every way I can think of to die would involve someone cleaning up the mess, so that's one way to prevent me from ending it, at least for now.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Well, yeah...lol I'm not trying to call you over to play checkers, here, haha. It would be serious. I just need that reassurance from you first in order to proceed is what I'm trying to say.

I know, I need reassurance too...well I am BPD after all. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I don't know if the phrase cleanup crew is right...there's people who are hired to clean crime scenes and stuff. But even if it was a stranger, I wouldn't want to scar them with that.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm not saying that I'm at risk of that, it's a hypothetical. Just one of those things I think about once in a while.

 

[Aurelia]

I know, I need reassurance too...well I am BPD after all. lol

Christy, do you love me?

Are you sure?

Are you really, really sure?

Nah...I don't think you sound too sure.

Oh, you do? OK. Well, you should have just said that to begin with! Geez.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Christy, do you love me?

Are you sure?

Are you really, really sure?

Nah...I don't think you sound too sure.

Oh, you do? OK. Well, you should have just said that to begin with! Geez.

Is that a song or a poem? I like it anyway. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I can imagine if I went to AA with my mom, it would be something like this. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

This place sounds right up my alley. lol

 

[Aurelia]

Is that a song or a poem? I like it anyway. lol

Lol nah, it was me mocking what someone with BPD might sound like, haha. What I, myself, used to sound like once upon a time...LOL.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol nah, it was me mocking what someone with BPD might sound like, haha. What I, myself, used to sound like once upon a time...LOL.

That could be part of a BPD song. Maybe I'll write one.

 

[Aurelia]

This place sounds right up my alley. lol

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People who are obsessed with meetings to the point that they never skip any and convinced themselves that they're going to relapse if they do, are literally replacing their addictions with another addiction...and then being hypocrites talking about how weed and methadone and suboxone makes you "not really clean".

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I saw myself in a window and I looked all distorted like this...



Just gives me more of a reason to eat healthier.

 

[Aurelia]

I saw myself in a window and I looked all distorted like this...

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Just gives me more of a reason to eat healthier.

That is exactly why I avoid looking at myself in car windows! Lol.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

That is exactly why I avoid looking at myself in car windows! Lol.

I looked even shorter and fatter. Well, I'm about average height, though maybe the smaller side of average. But more than half of my body is fat. lol