We all do, lol, because we're BPD :P it's literally the dopamine (that we otherwise severely lack) suddenly rushing through our brains and making us happy. The exact same thing as if I really were on drugs again, lol. Dare I say that this is probably better than the aforementioned option, but not by much. Because in the end, I'm still making myself more fragile by making choices that help me avoid my loneliness rather than face it and accept it. But I'm sure you weren't looking for a psychologocal/philosophical lecture lol...so I'll end it there and thank you for the well wishes. I hope it goes well also, but based on what I know of him so far, I think it will.
P.S...did I mention he's also really tall and part Norwegian?... 😍😍😍 (Okay, shut up, Feeling Brain; go distract yourself with something shiny or some shit.)