BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol it's called makeup. I thought you were supposed to be "witty"? :P J/k, of course...

Even that won't help at this point :P

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I finally fucking finished my last philosophy project. Thank you to all of you for sharing your stories, once again. I used little bits of all of them....just so you all know. Your stories were heard

Glad to be able to help

 

[Aurelia]

Even that won't help at this point :P

The proper makeup helps just about anything lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

The proper makeup helps just about anything lol

I'm too cheap to buy proper makeup. lol

 

[Aurelia]

I'm too cheap to buy proper makeup. lol

I didn't mean proper as in brand-name shit...just the "right" makeup for whatever issue you're having.

Some creams, concealer, foundation, and powder should work, honestly.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol it's called makeup. I thought you were supposed to be "witty"? :P J/k, of course...

I'm not always witty, I can be downright lame at times. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I hate when I transition from the fun and happy drunk into the sad and crying drunk...just nope.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I start to think too much...that's my main problem.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I was trying to think of how to describe BPD, and I thought, "Something got damaged along the way". I guess that explains it.

 

[Aurelia]

Not sure why, but I keep noticing that I'm waking up after my first REM cycle on a nightly basis. After almost exactly 90 minutes since I went to bed. Then the rest of the night, I seem to sleep through. Weird.

 

[Aurelia]

I was trying to think of how to describe BPD, and I thought, "Something got damaged along the way". I guess that explains it.

I think quite a few things got damaged along the way. But perhaps some of it is also genetic, who knows.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My friend asked if I'm alright....do you guys ever have a hard time answering that? Like I don't know what "alright" means a lot of the time, or if I even am.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I told him I was ok, but who knows if I ever really am anymore.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm listening to a song I haven't heard in a while. It reminds me of BPD, especially when paired with addiction.
I'm Shakin'
Rooney


I've forgotten what it feels like to feel normal
To be normal
And I've forgotten what food tastes like
The way it tastes right

The taste buds taste right
Well I wake up in so much spit and sweat
It is not normal
What is normal

I go to bed
When I wake up
After cleaning all
All the spit and sweat

Now I'm now I'm sh sh shakin' sh shakin' I'm
Sh sh shakin' sh shakin' now

I tossed and turned all night
'Cause I, cause I was looking for, for an ending
This was so because, because I watched all day
The "Neverending story" with Atreyu

The next day came but not a beam of light
Because the blinds were shut
Sh sh sh shut so tight
I fell out of bed laced in spit and sweat

It made me very cold
Now I'm now I'm sh sh shakin' sh shakin'
I'm sh sh shakin' sh shakin' now

I'm supposed to feel better
This nightmare supposed to end
I am holding on
I'm shakin' now

 

[Aurelia]

So the girl I work with, that I mentioned before, apparently might quit soon. She mentioned to me today how standing at the register all day feels tedious and she won't be doing it for that much longer...which I don't blame her for one bit. It absolutely is tedious and mind-numbing...which is why I've quit every single cashiering job I've had in the past lol.

But point is, if she does, in fact, quit (and has bisexual tendencies), that would mean it could become an option. Lol.

She agreed to go see the new Scream movie with me tomorrow, just as a friend-type thing, depending on whether she can find someone to watch her daughter in the meantime. Granted, it's not set in stone, but if she does end up going, I'll probably find out one way or another if she's straight or not based on how she acts. But either way, it's still going to remain friendly, unless I know for a fact she's quitting. Already learned my lesson on that front.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

So the girl I work with, that I mentioned before, apparently might quit soon. She mentioned to me today how standing at the register all day feels tedious and she won't be doing it for that much longer...which I don't blame her for one bit. It absolutely is tedious and mind-numbing...which is why I've quit every single cashiering job I've had in the past lol.

But point is, if she does, in fact, quit (and has bisexual tendencies), that would mean it could become an option. Lol.

She agreed to go see the new Scream movie with me tomorrow, just as a friend-type thing, depending on whether she can find someone to watch her daughter in the meantime. Granted, it's not set in stone, but if she does end up going, I'll probably find out one way or another if she's straight or not based on how she acts. But either way, it's still going to remain friendly, unless I know for a fact she's quitting. Already learned my lesson on that front.

I'm glad you have a potential new friend, at the very least. Or maybe even more, but either way, I'm happy for you.

 

[Aurelia]

I'm glad you have a potential new friend, at the very least. Or maybe even more, but either way, I'm happy for you.

Thanks. With my luck, perhaps none of this is even going to happen though, lol. But we'll see.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm thinking too much...like I'll never find the one and that makes me feel incredibly sad.

 

[Aurelia]

When I was in pain today, and my cashier was on 10 min break (I was covering the register for him), I had a customer that apparently saw something was wrong by my facial expression and so I told him my stomach was killing me, but that I took Ibuprofen and was waiting for it to hopefully kick in. And he goes, "you need a perc," lol. I was like, "nah...I have a past history with that stuff. Plus, I wouldn't even feel it if I took one with my tolerance." He was like, "Ah..." I think that may have been TMI, haha.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

When I was in pain today, and my cashier was on 10 min break (I was covering the register for him), I had a customer that apparently saw something was wrong by my facial expression and so I told him my stomach was killing me, but that I took Ibuprofen and was waiting for it to hopefully kick in. And he goes, "you need a perc," lol. I was like, "nah...I have a past history with that stuff. Plus, I wouldn't even feel it if I took one with my tolerance." He was like, "Ah..." I think that may have been TMI, haha.

How are you feeling now?