BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Do you ever think about precursors as a kid that you would become BPD? Obviously it's too soon to tell when you're young, but I always was emotional and sensitive. I see some similarities with my nephew, and wondering if he'll get it when he gets older.

 

[Aurelia]

How are you feeling now?

Well, thankfully, the ibuprofen did kick in, so I made it through the day. But I spent several hours just kind of sitting there miserable and in pain. And I swear to God, if my boss starts complaining that I didn't get a lot done tomorrow, I'm going to fucking freak. Like, I fucking told you I was in pain and you just completely dismissed it like it was no big deal. Fucking bitch. She's lucky I didn't just say fuck it and leave anyway.

 

[Aurelia]

And thank you for asking, by the way ❤

 

[Aurelia]

Do you ever think about precursors as a kid that you would become BPD? Obviously it's too soon to tell when you're young, but I always was emotional and sensitive. I see some similarities with my nephew, and wondering if he'll get it when he gets older.

Yeah, I do believe that part of it is due to genetics. I think it's a mixture of things...genetics, environment, specific experiences.

 

[Aurelia]

I love this.

"In order to feel like something is missing, one has to go into the past or future and imagine something being missing. Your disturbances are always in the past and future. And the only thing you were ever worried about is that you wouldn't make it to this particular moment. And yet, here you are. In this very moment, you are, in fact, completely whole. And hence, you could have relaxed because you were never really missing anything, just confused about what was real."

-Tiger Singleton

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, I do believe that part of it is due to genetics. I think it's a mixture of things...genetics, environment, specific experiences.

He asked today if I still like him, and I said of course I do, and asked him why. He said something like "Maybe you'll decide to stop", and that reminds me of something I would say.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Like I can remember laying on the ground in second grade and just breaking down. So I knew early on I was different than my peers.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

And some kid said I was faking being hurt. I was hurting, but it was emotionally.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, I do believe that part of it is due to genetics. I think it's a mixture of things...genetics, environment, specific experiences.

This is what I read:
People are five times more likely to have BPD if a close relative has it.

I didn't even realize it was that high. It kind of worries me because if I have kids, I wouldn't want them to go through this. But I would know how to help them through it. And how to be a good parent, and learn from the mistakes of my family.

 

[Aurelia]

This is what I read:
People are five times more likely to have BPD if a close relative has it.

I didn't even realize it was that high. It kind of worries me because if I have kids, I wouldn't want them to go through this. But I would know how to help them through it. And how to be a good parent, and learn from the mistakes of my family.

Yeah, I thought the same things before, but then, who knows if I'll even have kids. I think chances probably are that I'll either adopt or accept someone else's kids as my own at this point.

 

[Aurelia]

He asked today if I still like him, and I said of course I do, and asked him why. He said something like "Maybe you'll decide to stop", and that reminds me of something I would say.

Yeah...it does seem a bit familiar. But nothing you can do either way, except just be supportive.

 

[Aurelia]

Like I can remember laying on the ground in second grade and just breaking down. So I knew early on I was different than my peers.

I knew I was different too. We all know, I think. Not the specifics, but just the fact that we don't act how others seem to act and don't feel how others seem to feel. Yet, at an early age, we just don't know why yet.

 

[Aurelia]

So the whole thing with the girl didn't work out, as I suspected lol. Not her fault though, or mine. She just couldn't find anyone to help watch her daughter.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

So the whole thing with the girl didn't work out, as I suspected lol. Not her fault though, or mine. She just couldn't find anyone to help watch her daughter.

Well keep looking, you're too awesome not to find someone.

 

[Aurelia]

Well keep looking, you're too awesome not to find someone.

Lol I think I might be too awesome for my own good. Or at least, thats one way of putting it, haha.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol I think I might be too awesome for my own good. Or at least, thats one way of putting it, haha.

Maybe we both are. haha

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Do you ever think of random things and just get angry? I used to write stories in study hall when I was in middle school. I had done my homework and was keeping quietly occupied, but that seemed to bother the teacher that bullied me. He went through my notebook and tore out a bunch of pages. I still have the original of a story I wrote and one page is ripped because of him. He said I wasn't being productive and I was writing letters to my boyfriend. Actually, I was writing stories and being creative. Guess that bothered him because he had no imagination. Fucking bald assface prick, he pissed me off in so many ways. And I'm still writing to this day, so fuck that guy.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

He was an asshole to other people too. He said that my sister's friend was too heavy to wear tank tops, and she was like 140 pounds max.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm listening to that song "No Scrubs" and it reminds me of when a popular girl was mad because she had to "sit by the scrubs". One girl I was friendly with said, "That's not nice, Christy is sitting over there". At least someone stuck up for me. And the popular girl was nice to me in the next few years. I guess she realized how cool I was. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol I also can't listen to that song "Drive My Car" without remembering the parody song people made about me. "You can drive my car, but it won't go very far, you ate my last candy bar, you pigged out on the salad bar". etc fun times.