BPD Support Thread

[KM76710]

DUDE. I was JUST THINKING ABOUT THIS the other day. I swear I was going to re open that thread and tag her LOL But I didn't think she'd find that as amusing as I would have. People loved that shit!!

I agree, these are the types of things I find entertaining and interesting. I can imagine mine being a mix of dark and light, but then again so would so many others.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Eh, can't I just split again? Seems easier than hating myself.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

It's like...I don't think I'm going to become a better person. And I don't think anyone cares enough for me to want to change for them. So I just keep failing.

 

[Aurelia]

Thank you so much for the reading. It means a lot to me. I'm glad that the news is positive. I know I have to work a little bit to find someone, because they won't just fall into my lap. But I'm glad there is hope that I will find them someday.

Of course there's hope, silly. We all keep telling you that. As long as you're still breathing, there's always hope. It's never too late.

 

[Aurelia]

I don't think anyone cares enough for me to want to change for them

What do you think the problem is with this statement...if you think logically?

 

[Aurelia]

Eh, can't I just split again? Seems easier than hating myself.

Gotta find a target for the rage to manifest toward lol.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

It's hard to see sometimes. And I can't change for anyone else, only myself. But it seems like I keep letting people down even when I don't mean to.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Usually a black and white split is like...you love people or hate them. But mine is a little different, because when I get like that, I think people either love me or don't like me at all. Is that weird?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I took this test and got affective. What about you guys?

https://themighty.com/2019/09/quiz-bpd-types/

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My mom said I would get mad at her because she bought 3 beers. It's like no, now I can get obliterated too. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Before I destroy anyone with my BPD, it seems easier to destroy myself.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Why couldn't I have APD or something instead of BPD? Then I wouldn't be crying all the time. I just wouldn't care at all.

 

[Aurelia]

I took this test and got affective. What about you guys?

https://themighty.com/2019/09/quiz-bpd-types/

Empty. Struggle mostly with identity and setting goals.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Empty. Struggle mostly with identity and setting goals.

Hmm I'm feeling empty now so I can relate.

 

[Pebble mouse]

I took this test and got affective. What about you guys?

I got affective too.

 

[Sammysunshine]

I feel like people don't understand why I dislike being alone so much. Mostly it helps my mind go to all sorts of bad places. But I feel stupid trying to explain it, because it makes no sense why I should feel this way. Does anyone else go through this?

Yes, I hate being alone, I think being with others coregulates us, also I have abandonment trauma from a young age so I think that’s where my fear of being alone comes from

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yes, I hate being alone, I think being with others coregulates us, also I have abandonment trauma from a young age so I think that’s where my fear of being alone comes from

Same here and it doesn't go away. I wish I didn't base my worth on what others think of me, but it's so hard not to.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Why do I have to deal with this for the rest of my life? It's exhausting to be weeping one minute, laughing the next, and then crashing down. I can't take it anymore.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

If I feel people will cut me off, then I have to cut everyone else off before they do. That's just that splitting kinda thing again. But it will protect me and everyone else in the long run.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm in full black split mode now. Only you guys will get this. I have to cut everyone off that I know now, and start over. I want to go away before the split takes over completely and I get mean when I don't want to be. I want people to have good memories of me at least.