BPD Support Thread

[Aurelia]

He probably wanted to try and assert his dominance over you because he thinks you must be fragile, being a woman and all. Then he would try to hit on you and make excuses for bad behavior.

Oh, speaking of hitting on me...Some fucking weirdo customer tried doing just that while I was trying to talk to my associate. I was telling him to do a cart count and recover the craft aisle, and this dude interrupts us and goes, "I like your earrings". I was like, "thanks." and continued my conversation. And of course, he looked like a total scumbag because that's the only type that seems to be attracted to me, at least, in real life. But it's like, yeah, I'm sure my earrings is what you fucking noticed, you fucking jerkoff. Unless you're gay, you don't give a flying fuck about my earrings.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Oh, speaking of hitting on me...Some fucking weirdo customer tried doing just that while I was trying to talk to my associate. I was telling him to do a cart count and recover the craft aisle, and this dude interrupts us and goes, "I like your earrings". I was like, "thanks." and continued my conversation. And of course, he looked like a total scumbag because that's the only type that seems to be attracted to me, at least, in real life. But it's like, yeah, I'm sure my earrings is what you fucking noticed, you fucking jerkoff. Unless you're gay, you don't give a flying fuck about my earrings.

He couldn't be bold and say "your chest" so he went with that instead. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I told my mom I dumped out the alcohol and I thought she would be proud of me. But she seemed upset about it. It's like, I was the only one drinking, anyway. She keeps saying she's done drinking, but that proves to me that she's not.

 

[Aurelia]

He couldn't be bold and say "your chest" so he went with that instead. lol

Yeah, and it's like, seriously, do you really think I'm going to stop my conversation and acknowledge your stupid ass? Like, no...men are fucking stupid.

 

[Aurelia]

I told my mom I dumped out the alcohol and I thought she would be proud of me. But she seemed upset about it. It's like, I was the only one drinking, anyway. She keeps saying she's done drinking, but that proves to me that she's not.

Thays because normally, to addicts, disposing of their drug of choice is like a kick in the nuts (or ovaries). My husband would probably feel the same way if I flushed dope down the toilet.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Thays because normally, to addicts, disposing of their drug of choice is like a kick in the nuts (or ovaries). My husband would probably feel the same way if I flushed dope down the toilet.

It was a few shots of vodka and some champagne. She hadn't even been drinking any of it. I want to go outside just so I don't have to deal with her, but I know I really can't.

 

[Aurelia]

It was a few shots of vodka and some champagne. She hadn't even been drinking any of it. I want to go outside just so I don't have to deal with her, but I know I really can't.

Yeah, but even so, it would feel that way to a lot of addicts. I personally can flush the shit, but those who can't, I think it indicates that they're still not ready to let it go fully.

 

[Aurelia]

And my husband actually just called me finally after about 2 weeks of not speaking...I didn't hear it and didn't pick up, but texted him to see what he wants.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

And my husband actually just called me finally after about 2 weeks of not speaking...I didn't hear it and didn't pick up, but texted him to see what he wants.

What did he say?

 

[Aurelia]

What did he say?

Nothing yet. Not sure how you call someone and then don't answer when they call you back ffs...

 

[Aurelia]

He just said "call you back, can't talk at the moment". Then why the fuck did you call??? Like, seriously, wtf is it with people...

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

He just said "call you back, can't talk at the moment". Then why the fuck did you call??? Like, seriously, wtf is it with people...

Because he wants to be annoying :P

 

[Aurelia]

Because he wants to be annoying :P

Wouldn't surprise me. Or he wants to hit me with something that he knows is going to upset the fuck out of me. So I'm trying to prepare myself for just about anything when he does call back.

 

[Gwyrdd]

And how's your stamina now? Lol

Sexually, superb. Emotionally, in the fuckin ground lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Sexually, superb. Emotionally, in the fuckin ground lol

Eh, technically you don't need emotions for that stuff. lol

 

[Gwyrdd]

Technically I do not. But when emotions get involved now, it's exhausting.

 

[Aurelia]

Husband is telling me he has cancer. I don't know if he really does (like, actually got diagnosed) or he's just assuming shit at this point and trying to make me believe it so that I feel like shit...and he's also saying he's having seizures because basically I'm not giving him benzos anymore. I said if you're in that much pain and seizing, go to the ER. I can't let him get into my head again. I know he's partially trying to manipulate me again to get what he wants. It just hurts to see him hurting, I can't help it. But I won't feed into it either.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Husband is telling me he has cancer. I don't know if he really does (like, actually got diagnosed) or he's just assuming shit at this point and trying to make me believe it so that I feel like shit...and he's also saying he's having seizures because basically I'm not giving him benzos anymore. I said if you're in that much pain and seizing, go to the ER. I can't let him get into my head again. I know he's partially trying to manipulate me again to get what he wants. It just hurts to see him hurting, I can't help it. But I won't feed into it either.

Sounds 100% like he's just trying to manipulate you. It's what people do, not much you can do besides ignore them. All other people ever do is disappoint.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Sounds 100% like he's just trying to manipulate you. It's what people do, not much you can do besides ignore them. All other people ever do is disappoint.

Not all people...we're pretty cool. :P But I'm sure he's lying again because he can't get what he wants. And I'm just basing that on what he's done before.

 

[Aurelia]

Sounds 100% like he's just trying to manipulate you. It's what people do, not much you can do besides ignore them. All other people ever do is disappoint.

You got that right...but in order to feel disappointed, one first has to have hope. Maybe to extinguish it is the answer.