BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

When I don't hear from someone for a long time, I assume they're sick of me. Although it's not completely paranoia, because people get fed up with me eventually.

 

[Angie74]

I can definitely relate. I always think people are going to either reject or abandon me, or both.

Does anyone else with BPD find goodbyes (temporary ones) really difficult? I know logically I'll probably see them again, but it feels like my heart is being ripped out everytime I spend time with someone, and then have to leave them for the day/night. I constantly have to try not to be clingy.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I can definitely relate. I always think people are going to either reject or abandon me, or both.

Does anyone else with BPD find goodbyes (temporary ones) really difficult? I know logically I'll probably see them again, but it feels like my heart is being ripped out everytime I spend time with someone, and then have to leave them for the day/night. I constantly have to try not to be clingy.

Yeah, I feel like I'm all alone in the world if no one is around. So I can definitely relate to taht.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I wish I could stop getting attached so easily. I should just try and shut off my emotions.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Seriously, I feel like I'm in love with anyone who is kind to me, and I'm sick of it.

 

[Aurelia]

Seriously, I feel like I'm in love with anyone who is kind to me, and I'm sick of it.

Wittster, it happens....I'm the same way a lot of the time. But here's the thing, we feel things very intensely at the moment, but then when things calm down and we get a moment of clarity, those feelings do subside a bit. So look for those moments of clarity for the truth about how you feel.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Wittster, it happens....I'm the same way a lot of the time. But here's the thing, we feel things very intensely at the moment, but then when things calm down and we get a moment of clarity, those feelings do subside a bit. So look for those moments of clarity for the truth about how you feel.

I feel like I won't ever know what true love is because I won't be able to tell the difference.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

And I wish I had a filter to stop.saying whatever is on my mind so I stop embarrassing myself.

 

[Aurelia]

I feel like I won't ever know what true love is because I won't be able to tell the difference.

Lol and you think I know what it is after being married to a sociopath for 9 years and having BPD? Fuck no. I realized I need to figure out who the hell I even am before I worry about what love is because I honestly never did figure that out.

 

[Aurelia]

And I wish I had a filter to stop.saying whatever is on my mind so I stop embarrassing myself.

You're not. Don't think too much into it. There's nothing wrong with saying what's on your mind.

 

[Aurelia]

The loneliness of being single has been setting in. I'm doing my best to deal with it, but it really blows not having anyone to wake up next to.

But I'm trying to fill the empty time with work, schoolwork, the gym, etc...

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

You're not. Don't think too much into it. There's nothing wrong with saying what's on your mind.

I am worried though, think I pushed someone away yet again.

 

[Aurelia]

I am worried though, think I pushed someone away yet again.

I doubt that. I think you're most likely just overanalyzing things.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I doubt that. I think you're most likely just overanalyzing things.

Yeah, you're right about that. But I still feel like too much for people.

 

[Aurelia]

Yeah, you're right about that. But I still feel like too much for people.

You're not, C. None of us are perfect, and I have the same thing you have so I get it.

 

[Aurelia]

It's that time of the fucking day again when there's basically nothing to do (besides the schoolwork that I can't concentrate on doing at the moment) and the misery begins to set in.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I hate when I end up worrying about people., I always think they're hurt or dead or hate me. Even though none of that is really logical.

 

[Aurelia]

I hate when I end up worrying about people., I always think they're hurt or dead or hate me. Even though none of that is really logical.

Yeah, I went through a hell of a lot of that while married to him. I know how that is. I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone. It's just, like, utter hopelessness and despair to the 100th power.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, I went through a hell of a lot of that while married to him. I know how that is. I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone. It's just, like, utter hopelessness and despair to the 100th power.

It sucks when people don't even care enough to assure us that they're fine.

 

[Aurelia]

It sucks when people don't even care enough to assure us that they're fine.

Yep. And they act like we're the fucking crazy ones when we haven't heard from them all goddamned day (well, at least, in the case of marriage that would be unusual). It's like, it really doesn't take much effort at all to say "I'm ok." so that I know you're fucking alive.