BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

This popped up on my Facebook timeline. One of the happiest days of my life, and another reason I want to stay alive.

November 3, 2013 ·
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Yeah, so I found out I'm gonna have a little nephew in about 3 months

 

[Gwyrdd]

Well, William Burroughs was also a queer misogynist who killed his wife, so... I wouldn't put much stock in what he was saying.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Sometimes I think my BPD is just me in a constant state of PTSD since I do also have C-PTSD. Making a new friend just triggers all that PTSD all over again because I just fear it will all go to shit, because inevitably, it will. I just assume keep to myself.

During my art thingy I met another nonbinary person and I got all excited because there aren't people like that around here. But now I'm like...maybe I shouldn't try to peruse a friendship with them because I'll probably just ruin it.

I came on here hoping to make a friend and that hasn't happened either. I'm a goddamn loser. I don't think anyone hates themselves as much as I do. I don't deserve to live.

And today I just feel sick. I think I have a fever. I mean, kinda wish I did so I can just be taken care of--how pathetic is that? See what I mean?

I will stop now.

I have cptsd and ptsd too. Only like 3 people even know what triggered my ptsd, I even lied to get it diagnosed. Not about the symptoms, only about the specific event. Christy knows, and she can attest to it being worthy of the lie. Anyway I'm rambling.

The overlap of cptsd and bpd is horrible sometimes. I'm sorry you have to deal with that too. Maybe you haven't found friends how you wanted here. But we're at least here to listen.

 

[Aurelia]

4 and a half hours have now passed since the start of my shift and now is the part where everything starts to become excruciatingly mind-numbing. Well, not excruciatingly quite yet, but give about another hour, hour and a half and it'll get there. Lol.

 

[Gwyrdd]

4 and a half hours have now passed since the start of my shift and now is the part where everything starts to become excruciatingly mind-numbing. Well, not excruciatingly quite yet, but give about another hour, hour and a half and it'll get there. Lol.

I got there from just doing nothing today tbh. So I feel you. Being forced to actively DO something today sounds hellish

 

[Gwyrdd]

My fuckin boomer boyfriend with no cell phone is in Knoxville right now with no phone, no computer, and his girlfriend is there for business so he can't use her phone either. And I'm being all borderline about it now because my mom and brother are STILL pissed at me. My roommate is too. And now I can't even talk to him either until tomorrow night...

Trying to avoid using, or drinking, but its really hard right now.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My fuckin boomer boyfriend with no cell phone is in Knoxville right now with no phone, no computer, and his girlfriend is there for business so he can't use her phone either. And I'm being all borderline about it now because my mom and brother are STILL pissed at me. My roommate is too. And now I can't even talk to him either until tomorrow night...

Trying to avoid using, or drinking, but its really hard right now.

How is he a boomer if he's younger than me? Or does he just act like one? lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Well, you know you can always talk to me. I was in the alcohol section today and very tempted to buy something, but I didn't. Wish I could break other addictions, though.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My fuckin boomer boyfriend with no cell phone is in Knoxville right now with no phone, no computer, and his girlfriend is there for business so he can't use her phone either. And I'm being all borderline about it now because my mom and brother are STILL pissed at me. My roommate is too. And now I can't even talk to him either until tomorrow night...

Trying to avoid using, or drinking, but its really hard right now.

I saw a Christmas card with a hot shirtless guy on it...you were the very first one I thought of.
I was like "He would like this, but the guy's not hairy enough:. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Or woman, or non binary person, or whatever else.

 

[Gwyrdd]

How is he a boomer if he's younger than me? Or does he just act like one? lol

It's an inside joke. "Boomer isn't an age, it's a state of mind" me and Rachel always call him a boomer lol

 

[Gwyrdd]

I saw a Christmas card with a hot shirtless guy on it...you were the very first one I thought of.
I was like "He would like this, but the guy's not hairy enough:. lol

I like the occasional smooth people. But yeah, you right.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

It's an inside joke. "Boomer isn't an age, it's a state of mind" me and Rachel always call him a boomer lol

Yeah I was gonna say, even I'm just an older millennial. haha

 

[Gwyrdd]

He also has "boomer time".

When he says "I'll be like 20 minutes" I expect an hour. Which to be fair is mostly ADHD time blindness. But not for him.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

He also has "boomer time".

When he says "I'll be like 20 minutes" I expect an hour. Which to be fair is mostly ADHD time blindness. But not for him.

That's like me but with sleeping. I can get out of bed and be a productive member of society, but I don't really want to do that. I was all too eager to get out of bed today to eat Chinese buffet and go shopping.

 

[Aurelia]

My fuckin boomer boyfriend with no cell phone is in Knoxville right now with no phone, no computer, and his girlfriend is there for business so he can't use her phone either. And I'm being all borderline about it now because my mom and brother are STILL pissed at me. My roommate is too. And now I can't even talk to him either until tomorrow night...

Trying to avoid using, or drinking, but its really hard right now.

I get pissed at shit like that too. He never cared whether his phone was charged, broken, etc., and meanwhile I'm freaking out because I have no way of even trying to get a hold of him. But that never mattered to him.

 

[Aurelia]

He also has "boomer time".

When he says "I'll be like 20 minutes" I expect an hour. Which to be fair is mostly ADHD time blindness. But not for him.

Yep. "20 minutes" with my husband almost always meant "anywhere from an hour to whenever I may feel like calling you"

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I get pissed at shit like that too. He never cared whether his phone was charged, broken, etc., and meanwhile I'm freaking out because I have no way of even trying to get a hold of him. But that never mattered to him.

I'm the opposite, mine is always charged but no one ever tries to get ahold of me. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Are you sure your guys aren't actually 500 years old? lol

 

[Aurelia]

Are you sure your guys aren't actually 500 years old? lol

No, mine is just an ass.