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Witty_Sarcasm

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I made two small mistakes in the story. I accidentally had / instead of . Then I used the wrong name in a part. So I felt bad about that and I'm beating myself up. I don't know why I do that. Maybe because people already said I have poor grammar and I need it to be perfect.
 

Aurelia

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Nah, I would just weird you out too. I don't know when to stop. :P
I'm not a normal person, if you've noticed. The only thing that weirds me out IS normalcy lol.

You have someone to flirt with already, and I make things too awkward. :D
I mean, like I said, I wouldn't call it flirting...just mostly getting to know him a bit. I honestly don't even know why the hell I'm doing it. I know it's a bad idea, but these types of things are literally like a high to me. If I know someone is interested, and they're my type, it's so hard to stop myself from pursuing it. I really should just back off before it goes any further and becomes inappropriate, but... yeah, I've got nothing else to say on that note. Just "but".... :P

I made two small mistakes in the story. I accidentally had / instead of . Then I used the wrong name in a part. So I felt bad about that and I'm beating myself up. I don't know why I do that. Maybe because people already said I have poor grammar and I need it to be perfect.
Those aren't really grammar mistakes, though. The first one seems like a typo and the second seems like you just accidentally overlooked a detail. Shit happens. It's not like you have a professional editor to do that type of shit for you. And even professional authors make mistakes, which is why they do typically hire editors.
 

Aurelia

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But in my defense....lol....the dude offers to give me his number, you know, in case I "need help with work stuff" lol. Then he brings me coffee on his day off.

Not that anyone was asking for an explanation...I'll just stop making myself look like a jackass now by trying to justify it.
 

KM76710

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I agree with Aurelia. Minor mistakes and you at least had the guts to enter submissions and put yourself out there while many never will but may criticize. And yes, people who are writers and do it for a living have editors, proof readers and others to double check because it is easy to miss those such details. You deserve credit for taking the plunge and doing it in the first place.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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Yeah, if I make a few mistakes, some people love to point that out. But I know even professional make mistakes so I don't need to be so hard on myself.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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But in my defense....lol....the dude offers to give me his number, you know, in case I "need help with work stuff" lol. Then he brings me coffee on his day off.

Not that anyone was asking for an explanation...I'll just stop making myself look like a jackass now by trying to justify it.
Lol oh and by the way, I didn't make things weird earlier. He's just shit faced and passed out. But you know how I love overthinking.
 

Gwyrdd

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But in my defense....lol....the dude offers to give me his number, you know, in case I "need help with work stuff" lol. Then he brings me coffee on his day off.

Not that anyone was asking for an explanation...I'll just stop making myself look like a jackass now by trying to justify it.
Honestly, whether he's an employee to you or not. It's not wrong to see what he's like. And if anything progresses further you just do some paperwork, or hiding, and you're set.

No harm in getting to know someone though.
 

Dope

sleepwalker
Speaking of my rainbow meter, I did some research and there are actually a few studies looking at the coexistence of homo/bisexuality in BPD, and they found borderlines are more like to be nonhet.
That is interesting. I did not know that at all. I'm pansexual, and trans. But my mother was borderline (not officially dx'ed), but she was with bipolar. She was def BPD. But that's me calling it like it is. Or, maybe she was a sociopath. My brother kinda is. Maybe I am too (just kidding). Anyway, she was def not gay and she was way cis.

She was very manipulative by the way--and I only say that because that too was mentioned in your people's conversation some time back. I only come on here a couple times a day and the conversation moves so fast between a couple of people (that seem to know each other pretty well), that it probably just seems like I'm bringing stuff up out of the clear fucking blue. And that makes it look like I'm also on the spectrum. Ha!

Someone else also mentioned the differences in BPD and ...was it sociopathic personalities? One caring what others thought of them. Didn't Gacy and people like that want to make sure others thought super well of them? This is why I say "maybe I'm a sociopath too!" I care way too much about what other people think about me. It's pretty sickening. It makes me want to, well...you can guess why I have come to this forum to begin with.
 

Gwyrdd

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That is interesting. I did not know that at all. I'm pansexual, and trans. But my mother was borderline (not officially dx'ed), but she was with bipolar. She was def BPD. But that's me calling it like it is. Or, maybe she was a sociopath. My brother kinda is. Maybe I am too (just kidding). Anyway, she was def not gay and she was way cis.

She was very manipulative by the way--and I only say that because that too was mentioned in your people's conversation some time back. I only come on here a couple times a day and the conversation moves so fast between a couple of people (that seem to know each other pretty well), that it probably just seems like I'm bringing stuff up out of the clear fucking blue. And that makes it look like I'm also on the spectrum. Ha!

Someone else also mentioned the differences in BPD and ...was it sociopathic personalities? One caring what others thought of them. Didn't Gacy and people like that want to make sure others thought super well of them? This is why I say "maybe I'm a sociopath too!" I care way too much about what other people think about me. It's pretty sickening. It makes me want to, well...you can guess why I have come to this forum to begin with.
There's definitely gonna be exceptions everywhere. Or people who aren't what/who they identify as (though I just trust that people are who they say they are pertainingto their own identity) There is a lot of overlap with a lot of cluster Bs though. Also, some people are just bad regardless of mental health and PDs just facilitate the already desire toxic behaviors they want to display. Which I believe none of us here are like. We don't WANT to hurt others, sone people do.

We'll probably all remember what you're replying to. No need to feel weird about it. Everyone has a voice here :)

I think the intent behind it is the important distinction. I want people to like me, or show they do, because I don't feel likeable and I want reassurance that I am. Antisocials and narcs want to believe people like them because they believe themselves to be the epitome of perfection and can't imagine how anyone could believe otherwise. Basically, we derive self worth FROM others, and they want validation that everyone else sees them are more worthy than anyone else.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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That is interesting. I did not know that at all. I'm pansexual, and trans. But my mother was borderline (not officially dx'ed), but she was with bipolar. She was def BPD. But that's me calling it like it is. Or, maybe she was a sociopath. My brother kinda is. Maybe I am too (just kidding). Anyway, she was def not gay and she was way cis.

She was very manipulative by the way--and I only say that because that too was mentioned in your people's conversation some time back. I only come on here a couple times a day and the conversation moves so fast between a couple of people (that seem to know each other pretty well), that it probably just seems like I'm bringing stuff up out of the clear fucking blue. And that makes it look like I'm also on the spectrum. Ha!

Someone else also mentioned the differences in BPD and ...was it sociopathic personalities? One caring what others thought of them. Didn't Gacy and people like that want to make sure others thought super well of them? This is why I say "maybe I'm a sociopath too!" I care way too much about what other people think about me. It's pretty sickening. It makes me want to, well...you can guess why I have come to this forum to begin with.
You don't need to feel bad. I just talk a lot about basically nothing and maybe clog the thread. Haha

You're always welcome to post here, and you're among people who get where you're coming from. :)
 

Aurelia

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Jesus H Christ, my family really don't know when to quit being overbearing. Like, I know they want the best for me, but I'm content with the job I have, content with the pay for the time being, and yet they want me to keep looking for other shit, that I may not even be able to tolerate or function with, that pays twice as much. I don't have that kind of experience to even expect twice as much, first off. And second, like I said, I'm content with what I have. As far as retail positions go, mine is actually not bad at all. And once I'm done my manager training, it'll get even better because then I'll barely ever have to do register at all, which I think is the most annoying part. I'm making enough to get an apartment eventually, my credit is decent so I won't need a co-signer. What more could I ask for at this point? In a year, I plan on starting to look for addiction counseling positions when I get my degree, but until then, I'm fine where I'm at. Like, seriously, just leave it be. What I need most right now is stability and constantly job-hopping doesn't count as very stable.
 

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