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[givenuponlife]

You havent frightend me but i dont want to deal with this shit anymore i have delt with it my whole life and enough is enough i cant take it......all of this crap has to stop and stop now.....and this is the only way i know how to stop it.... i have never known how to cope when shit like this came down....i am a stuffer i dont know how to deal with problems and i cant deal with this one i dont know what else to say

 

[givenuponlife]

see once i start asking how to get some kind of help from this forum everyone stops commenting... Why do you think i never want to come back here I just came back one more time to see if anyone really did care about me. And well lets just say I got my answer.....And the answer is NO...in the beginnig you cared but now no one does. So that tells me how to finish this off..... and it will be by saying

GOODBYE EVERYONE

 

[sudut]

hey given up on life,
am still here. please pm me if you wanna talk. the reason why we don't reply to you is that you take such a long time to reply to a post so we think you stopped following the thread or something. its not that we don't care. the best thing to do is to p.m(me) if you don't like to stay on a particular thread. sudut.

 

[givenuponlife]

I am still here...why???. :sad: The only reason i take so long is cause i dont have a computer of my own. But i feel like i am all alone and no one really cares about me at all. Even in this city i live in the people who i thought were friends just ended up backstabing me and i am having a real hard time trusting people again. I dont know which ones are being true friends and which ones are just using me. I wish i could just crawl under a rock,

 

[sudut]

are you still there?

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

Are you okay sweetie? let me know... hang in there. PM me if you need to okay?

You're in my thoughts and prayers.



With Love,
Carolyn. :hug:

 

[givenuponlife]

Thanks everyone for caring so much, if it wasnt for you guys i dont know where i would be right now. But as i said before when i get to a computer i do make sure i post.....and as you can tell i havent been able to in quiet awhile.

But i am still here, hanging on trying to make the best of this situation i am in, other then that i cant say much more

 

[givenuponlife]

painNsiolence to answer your question no i am really not alright. My mind is so F***ed up right now i don't really know what to think anymore...... i have the means to do IT......i have the time also. other then that it is just to build up enough courage to do IT...

So that is how i am doing right now......I am still here on this earth in body but in mind i am gone already

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

Hun have you ever been in therapy? or been on meds?




:hug:

 

[givenuponlife]

yes i have

been in therapy all total a year now

 

[wrong place wrong time]

i know that giving up seems like the only way out but, please dont do it. you may think that no one will care, but i promise they will. my dad "gave up" about a month ago, and now, with out him, my life seems meaningless. i know that you dont want someone that you love to feel as badly as i do. he thought that no one cared, but there were over five hundred people at his funeral, people who really loved him, he never even knew so many people loved him... i'm sure that there are just as many people who care just as much about you, and all of us care about you too. please, if you need to talk, pm me, i'm here...
just keep fighting, things get better, i swear!

 

[givenuponlife]

i have been fighting for the past 16yrs, when will it end. I hate living like this day in and day out it SUCKS big time. I know i would be missed by a couple of people but that is about it. No one really cares about me anymore, i have no friends I argue with my family alot ( i know, what family doesnt do that) but i am getting so tired of fighting this battle that it is emotionally and physically draining me. I want this struggle to end

 

[lonelyeyes]

sorry for responding so late
please reconsider your choice to end your life
things might seem to go terrible but please pull through
what I do is sleep
when I feel extreemly suicidal
and when I wake up if I still feel that way I ll go back to sleep until the feelings chage just a bit
keep in touch to know that you are okay
please people do care!!!!!

 

[givenuponlife]

sorry I havent been online lately.......

I try and sleep but I am having trouble doing that. Most nights I just stare at the wall blinking cause I can't fall asleep and I know I am tired but my body just won't calm down enough to say lights out.

And the stress that is in my life right now is enourmous I am surprised I have held out as long as I have. It hasn't been an easy road for me to travel, but as people keep on saying (even though I hate it) they tell me just to take it one day at a time and things will get better. Well its been years upon years and nothing really has gotten better so what is there to look forward to each day. I don't know but I keep trucking away

 

[Dead_Alive]

it doesnt end... I have to choose to fight for life each day I get up. You sink or you swim. You live or you die. For me... I am teetering on the ragged edge of life for many many years. Life goes on... I am breathing... and screaming in pain some days... but that means I am still alive. When I am dead... it will be silent and no one will remember and I fade away.

Life is so short... enjoy it while you got it... cause in the end... we all die sooner or later anyway. While we breathe there is hope... when we are dead... it is too late.

 

[givenuponlife]

can i just say F**K it to everything that is how i feel right now i cant deal with all of the stresses in my life at this moment....I know I was doing great at dealing with them but they are starting to get away from me again......I think about suicide 24/7 and that scares me....I haven't gone thru with any of the thoughts but I have come close many times.

I HATE MY LIFE...........i want everything negative in my mind to go away i cant deal with it anymore.

sorry to bother you guys with this babbling .......i think i will go now....bye

 

[givenuponlife]

Just to let u all know i have just finished counting out all the pills that make me sleepy (not sleeping pills though) and i am going to take about 123 of them i think that will do. And i will go to sleep and not wake up........

 

[Sorrow]

Please don't take those pills. We care about you here. Do you want to talk about what is bothering you? Are you ok? Is there anyone you can talk to?

 

[givenuponlife]

Yeah i do but they dont believe how i am feeling.

The only people i really talk to is on the net. I just need all this S**T to go away

 

[Sorrow]

Maybe you could try a different therapist? I can relate to how you are feeling. It never seems to get any easier, but you never know what could happen tomorrow. Why do you think that they don't believe you? I'm here if you want to talk about what's bothering you.