dealing with a breakup with bpd

[imsounloveable]

hi, im a sixteen year old girl n my name is molls mary. i have borderline personality diagnosed n my boyfriend left me a month ago.im genuinely devastated, i have genuinely cried for pretty much a month straight, i have no appetite, i only shower when my friends are coming over, i dont leave my room n my room is covered black mold from not opening my windows cs i js sleep the whole day n cry the whole night. i js order take out n cry while binge eating, the boy who broke up w me is so mean to me now. he barely talks to me n when he does its a completely one sided conversation, n the things i hear hes said to his friends about me hurts more than anything ive ever experienced. it feels like im grieving a death, i have a big halloween party tomorrow at my house theres like 50 people coming at 4pm its currently 05:00 ive been crying for an hour i was pressured into hosting, i dont know how im going to cope seeing all of them so happy while hes not there n i js have to hide my sadness with a smile on my face. my chest hurts from crying i cannot go on like this

 

[may71]

Hello and welcome to SF Molls Mary!

I'm sorry that you're feeling so bad and that your ex is being so mean.

i have borderline personality diagnosed

Are you getting any treatment for this?

I hope we can help get you through this

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

 

[justrob]

Hello,

Of course I can't know what you are going through but it seems extremely difficult. I have read up on BPD and it is one of the hardest diagnosis to have. I don't know what you have tried. I know you probably tried a lot of therapies and coping mechanisms. Just in case you haven't heard about it Dialectic Behavioral Therapy DBT has been shown to help people with BPD.

I dated a woman with BPD. Of course she was quite a bit older than you and may have already started to "age out" of BPD. It was one of the better relationships I had. I found a book that gave me practical advice in relating to someone with BPD. It was work and I had to do things outside my comfort zone, but it really helped with the relationship.

May you feel a little better soon.