Down a path

[may71]

Hugs Seabird

 

[Windhover]

Thank you @may71

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[Windhover]

@seabird. You have been through trying times. There have been some big readjustments in your life. Try to be gentle with yourself. Sometimes things just don't turn out.

((hugs))

I will try to be more gentle. Thank you for the wise and kind words.

hugs back

 

[Windhover]

 

[Windhover]

Sometimes things just don't turn out.

Maybe sitting with this identity as my new self is all there is, until finding or not, the will to want to get better.

Right when I need the beach and waves the most, I'm not there.

 

[may71]

Right when I need the beach and waves the most, I'm not there.

I wish you had that now.

 

[Windhover]

a random pic from one of my hikes. Tiny mushroom on the floor of a rain-forest among lichen and moss:

 

[Windhover]

My last therapist here didn't work out, and I really miss my accupuncture therapist in -------, but obviously therapy with him is impossible now that I've left Australia. My husband's comment to me, when I shared some bits about my therapy was, "oh, so you're ganging up on me." I don't get how getting therapy to help understand a troubled relationship constitutes the patient and practitioner consping against one's partner. I think that is my husband's neurosis talking. He ofteh thought eveyone was against him, but I do not know if that is paranoia or narcissism. Perhaps that's why he didn't like me talking to anyone. But in effect he needed me to be emotionally locked into an isolation with him. tomorrow I have a consultation app't with a new therapist who specializes in the particular problems I've been struggling with for several years. I need this person to explain and shed light on the issues.

 

[AvidFan]

My last therapist here didn't work out, and I really miss my accupuncture therapist in -------, but obviously therapy with him is impossible now that I've left Australia. My husband's comment to me, when I shared some bits about my therapy was, "oh, so you're ganging up on me." I don't get how getting therapy to help understand a troubled relationship constitutes the patient and practitioner consping against one's partner. I think that is my husband's neurosis talking. He ofteh thought eveyone was against him, but I do not know if that is paranoia or narcissism. Perhaps that's why he didn't like me talking to anyone. But in effect he needed me to be emotionally locked into an isolation with him. tomorrow I have a consultation app't with a new therapist who specializes in the particular problems I've been struggling with for several years. I need this person to explain and shed light on the issues.

Good luck with the new therapist, hope this one works out well for you! Shame you cannot see the acupuncture one any more.

 

[may71]

I hope the new therapist will be good.

accupuncture therapist

If you were getting both acupuncture and talk therapy, that's a bit uncommon to encounter, but I think that's cool.

 

[Windhover]

I hope the new therapist will be good.
Thank you. I can't afford to continue therapy. But it will be good to have a few consultations. They seem knowledgeable about the questions I have, and they're down to earth.

If you were getting both acupuncture and talk therapy, that's a bit uncommon to encounter, but I think that's cool.

He, the therapist was quite an empath. It was a little intense at times, like he could read my mind and mood very precisely. After each session, I'd walk on the beach track for a while.

 

[Windhover]

suicidal thoughts, because basically this situation is my fault, I should have never married. now I am broken and gone away from the country I thought was going to be home

 

[Jezah81]

suicidal thoughts, because basically this situation is my fault, I should have never married. now I am broken and gone away from the country I thought was going to be home

You shouldn't be too hard on yourself. 50% or more marriages end with divorce. Not saying it's a good thing , but if we all knew beforehand none of us would've got married in the first place! I'm a divorcee too by the way. Wishing you all the best and happiness because you deserve it

 

[iloverachel]

suicidal thoughts, because basically this situation is my fault, I should have never married. now I am broken and gone away from the country I thought was going to be home

 

[Windhover]

if the panic doesn't stop recurring I'm done.

 

[Jezah81]

if the panic doesn't stop recurring I'm done.

I understand the desperation here. I hope you get through this. Nice people like you don't deserve to feel this way.

 

[1964dodge]

if the panic doesn't stop recurring I'm done.

i hope you can lower the panic somehow. of Course you can talk with your doctor for medication that works. i take lorazepam for severe anxiety, only 2 or 3 a month on average, maybe something like tht could help. either way meds or not it may be a good idea to talk with your doctor. you can also distract yourself with music or movie, also working on a hobby or talking to your friends here can help. i hope today is better

mike....

 

[Windhover]

I understand the desperation here. I hope you get through this. Nice people like you don't deserve to feel this way.

Sorry that you understand, but thank you. I think I'm blaming my well whatever he is now. I know that's not the real solution.
I hope you get past it @Jezah81.

 

[Windhover]

of Course you can talk with your doctor for medication that works.

Exercise is my only medication mike. I react badly to pretty much everything else.\

hug

 

[may71]

A lot of people have bad marriages. Theres just risk inherent in all relationships.

Please be gentle with yourself

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