Down a path

[seabird]

Do you want to share more @seabird ?

When I was a little kid, there was some abuse. That is what is at the base of some of my behaviors. But I'm not as broken as I was told and I thought.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

When I was a little kid, there was some abuse. That is what is at the base of some of my behaviors. But I'm not as broken as I was told and I thought.

Wow, this enlightenment thing is working for you! You are an amazing, kind, loving soul. I hope you can continue to see this & realize you true value in the world. Abusers just manipulate to fulfill their wants. Know your truth! You are good! 💜
🦩🦩🦩🦩

 

[seabird]

I don't know about enlightenment?
Maybe I'm closer to acceptiance of the multitude of breakages, honesty with muself.
Thank you. You are so kind and supportive @FlamingoWrangler
🤗

 

[Egg119]

It is a known thing: I like to give the birds a little chopped up apple in the morning. New behaviour on partner's part is to leave the curtains closed so the birds can't see anyone moving in here.
And, he telling me not once but 3 times this morning that since no birds showed up so they must not be interested in getting apple anymore.

My sense is that this is a deliberate but difficult to assess or discuss.

I like to feed the birds too, I think it's because it gives me a sense of helping a creature selflessly. If it makes you happy, carry on doing it.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

@seabird
the phase is meant a little as a joke, but (in my mind) eludes to allowing yourself to be yourself.

Since changes/ likes are not harmful to yourself or others, then it is ok.
like its ok to feed the birds if you find comfort & peace.

Now- you have to remember this probably isn’t the real, full meaning. Its just what it is to me, in my little pea brain. 🤣

I hope that the simple joys in life continue to surround you. A little bit at a time. Each little bit can make a lot more contentment. ☮️✌️💜

🦩🦩🦩🦩

 

[seabird]

@FlamingoWrangler sometmes I'm a little dense okay maybe a lot.
That's part of me & I am being myself more.
i can no longer feed those birds as I left & came back to my place here. Long story.

I have made many very big mistakes, and have to live with it now.
Hopefully, I will find some joys here.
I hope you have goodness & peace in your life. It seems to flow from you so I guess you do.

best
- s

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

@FlamingoWrangler sometmes I'm a little dense okay maybe a lot.
That's part of me & I am being myself more.
i can no longer feed those birds as I left & came back to my place here. Long story.

I have made many very big mistakes, and have to live with it now.
Hopefully, I will find some joys here.
I hope you have goodness & peace in your life. It seems to flow from you so I guess you do.

best
- s

keep forgiving yourself. Try to learn. It will be ok.

I am very sad today. there is great potential for anything I type to be logged and used against me at a later time. (Thats a long story too!😂) when I can, I try to be useful. Gives me a little sense of value. Regardless, we can both keep trying for goodness & peace.
Be well.

 

[seabird]

I am very sad today.

I'm sorry you are so sad. It also sounds rather scary.
If you want to tell me the long version of your story I'm fine with that - in a PM though.

 

[KM76710]

thank you @FlamingoWrangler and @KM76710 .

I've been hanging around s f quite a bit, which helps me. I forgave my self for the, err, recent adventures. ☺️

Being able to forgive yourself is typically the hardest thing. I hope that you and others will always be able to self forgive and progress on from that point.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

So KM is self forgive the same as give up on self? 🤦‍♀️ Just being silly.
I guess I did both. I think i gave up when others could forgive Me. Idk. Just waiting for the end.
wow- I guess I am really sad, still.
Its a comfort to know sf listens.

 

[KM76710]

So KM is self forgive the same as give up on self? 🤦‍♀️ Just being silly.
I guess I did both. I think i gave up when others could forgive Me. Idk. Just waiting for the end.
wow- I guess I am really sad, still.
Its a comfort to know sf listens.

A bit of silly can be a fine release valve. And yes, we are here to listen for you and others so I am glad you find comfort with us.

 

[seabird]

Its a comfort to know sf listens.

I'm grateful too.
I tend to occasionally cause some friction socially that is but hope I manage to avoid doing so here.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I'm grateful too.
I tend to occasionally cause some friction socially that is but hope I manage to avoid doing so here.

 

[seabird]

tired of hurting

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

tired of hurting

That’s a crushing feeling. I am sorry you hurt. 🕊☮️✌️
I hope you can find moments of peace.
🦩🦩🦩🦩

 

[seabird]

Thank you @FlamingoWrangler . Your response makes me feel less wrong & less alone.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I am glad for that. 🤗

 

[KM76710]

Thank you @FlamingoWrangler . Your response makes me feel less wrong & less alone.

That is a good thing here, you know you have friends and hopefully feel like you are on your own because we will show support.

 

[seabird]

I am a loner in real life. It's really amazing to find support here. Thanks @KM76710 .

 

[seabird]

I am glad for that. 🤗

thanks for the hug