I wouldn't know where to start,there's the chronic depression that gives me suicidal thoughts all day every day,plus my ocd which has pretty much completely ruined my career as a mechanic,it's left me with absolutely zero self esteem,my friends give me grief for being so miserable but the truth is nobody has a bigger dislike for me than what I do,I try my hardest not to talk about suicide to my family as I know how upsetting it is but in reality I never really stop thinking about it even when I'm doing something else the thoughts are there I'm so dis functional have no confidence to do anything and no real skills,I try and comfort myself by telling myself life is only temporary but when I think how many years I could have left it terrifys me,I find myself going to bed every night and dreaming of euthanasia a pretty sad story really