So, the past 3 years, I've been going on and off to different doctors, all of whom never took me seriously. In a last ditch effort after my most recent bout of depression and suicidal thoughts, I decided to try and see another doctor. And I think I have finally found someone who will take me seriously and will actually give me some answers and be able to fully help me, instead of just patching me up for the time being. She's having me read a book titled, "I Hate You, Don't Leave Me". Its about Borderline Personality Disorder, and I couldn't be more blown away at the fact that there truly is a reason that I am the way that I am, besides me just thinking that I'm a freak. Its so comforting to know that I'll finally be able to pinpoint and work on my issues, but at the same time....its so scary. I fear that I'll find out just how different I really am from everyone else, and what my family will think when I finally tell them....Just looking for a bit of support, and seeing if anyone else out there feels the same?