I just don’t know what to even do with my life now. My best friend of six years and boyfriend of almost three years ended our relationship. The reason? He believes he causes me to become upset, but I get anxiety and panic attacks from school (both of us are juniors in college). He believes he’s indirectly causing my anxiety about school because he sees himself as distracting me from doing well. I guess anyone who knew us and how often we were together would agree with him. He ended it for the better in his eyes, and we still both love each other and will remain friends. But for me, I feel like I have lost my one true best friend in this whole world. My first love. The only person who made me feel beautiful, important, and like my true self. He broke my heart and I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t want to ever be with someone else. I’ll alway love him forever. I don’t think my life will move on from this sadness. How do people find love again after a heart break this deep? Why do people even bother? I will never be happy without him because I won’t have someone to tell me I am loved. That’s my story, that’s why I am here on this website.