Hi ellierose - I have been checking out your posts to get "caught up" because I was confused - and I am still a bit confused, so can I just check that I have the facts right?
Your dad raped you, (which is awful, I am so sorry). He is now going to court because charges are being pressed against him for raping you. He is still hurting you because you can't get away from him. Is all that right?
How is he getting near you to hurt you? If there are charges against him for raping you, I would have thought he would not be allowed to come near you as a condition of his bail as you are a) his victim and b) a key witness. I am confused about this part.
We want to make sure you get the help you need, but we are only peer support here and it is clear that you need real-life help to keep you safe and there are things I don't quite understand so not sure where to point you for support.