Reading the Bible has truly been helping to heal my heart little by little. God spoke to me today and it made me happy. I keep wondering why Israel kept turning to false gods, meanwhile knowing that The Lord exists. It doesn't seem to make sense. The Bible says they made sacrifices to other gods and then asked The Lord for help when calamity would strike them. It also makes me think that the reason I'm still unhappy is probably due to my past sins. I do believe the Lord has forgiven me, but sin is still its own punishment. When we sin, bad things happen to us. And I was a non-believer for a long time. So it would only make sense that I've been afflicted with depression and anxiety for the way I've led my life. I've spent a couple years now trying to turn that around, however. And I keep wondering when will I find relief? When will the sins of my past stop haunting me? The Lord tells me to have patience and faith, though. So I keep waiting and doing my best to follow in His path.