How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Aurelia]

Yep, exactly the kind of thoughts I have. Not sure about heaven though...

Wouldn't you want to go to heaven?

 

[Aurelia]

I am in the same boat as you. There is to much suffering and I am exhausted to be alone, not have a sense of belonging. I want to leave this earth. <mod edit - method>

I didn't even know it was a thing anywhere in the world.

 

[corneredrat]

Wouldn't you want to go to heaven?

I wouldn't mind going to heaven, of course. Who would? Just don't think I am worthy/likely to enter.

 

[1964dodge]

i was a bad little boy today lol. i was looking for those negative places today , first time in a long time, funny thing was twice i ended up here. so i surrender and will stay here lol.

i don't know what happened. i had a wave of depression and anxiety wash over me. it was intense and made me very suicidal. my wfe got upset because i wanted her to shut my door because i wanted privacy. it was to the point i wouldn't take my lorazepam because i know it would work.

i know that unless the laws change i will always be in moderate to severe pain. i have other things besides opioid meds but they help only a little. i did the only thing that always works. i read about suicide until i get too tired to care lol. i am feeling a bit better

mike

 

[Windhover]

the usual sadness but not too bad today, & it is very much appreciated. I rely on the running as medicine. Even the short runs change my brain for the better.

 

[cymbele]

That's nice of you to say. Maybe you're right. Although I feel pretty useless to people right now. No job, no car, no documents that are needed to get a driver's license, no friends, no supportive family, and my heart feels shattered.

once I got involved in my church and realized that people loved me for who I am and were genuinely interested in me the depression lifted. It doesn’t mean I don’t get lonely or sad that I don’t have a significant other but it comforts me that god and others care about me. Granted I have a supportive family but they are not here all the time. Once you start working at that center then you will feel better. Sometimes not having anything else to think about really depresses me. Hope this helps.

 

[Aurelia]

I wouldn't mind going to heaven, of course. Who would? Just don't think I am worthy/likely to enter.

If you believe in Jesus and what He did, and accept Him as Lord then you will go to heaven

 

[Holding my breath]

i was a bad little boy today lol. i was looking for those negative places today , first time in a long time, funny thing was twice i ended up here. so i surrender and will stay here lol.

i don't know what happened. i had a wave of depression and anxiety wash over me. it was intense and made me very suicidal. my wfe got upset because i wanted her to shut my door because i wanted privacy. it was to the point i wouldn't take my lorazepam because i know it would work.

i know that unless the laws change i will always be in moderate to severe pain. i have other things besides opioid meds but they help only a little. i did the only thing that always works. i read about suicide until i get too tired to care lol. i am feeling a bit better

mike

I’m sorry you went through that. It catches us off guard sometimes. I hope that deep down, you know that you are wanting to wait to be called home. You have a loving and caring family around you and I know how strong you are.
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Pleased you found your way to us here. We can hold you when you need that extra support.
Xx

 

[SillyOldBear]

Fed up and frustrated. Life is just to damn complex. And it only gets worse as you get older. So along with all the aches and pains and illness you have to deal with technology that costs way to much, that you don't understand, and you wish you would go away.

You also have to deal with all the crap ass news that is spewing around the world. You never know who to believe. Inflation, lies and the inability of people to work together are destroying things. Hell, its not just republicans and democrats fighting with each other. Even the people within each party cannot get along with each other. No wonder they can get nothing done.

I just want God to call me home! Soon!

 

[1964dodge]

I’m sorry you went through that. It catches us off guard sometimes. I hope that deep down, you know that you are wanting to wait to be called home. You have a loving and caring family around you and I know how strong you are.
Im
Pleased you found your way to us here. We can hold you when you need that extra support.
Xx

thank you @Holding my breath

mike...

 

[KM76710]

I think I need to take a break from here. I love everyone here, people are kind, but I'm feeling down. So if I can't help, there isn't much point. I'm not saying this site is bad, but I need to actually get up and be more positive about my life. I cant keep ruminating or seeing negativity. Don't take this wrong, I'm thankful for all the help I've gotten here and the support.

I am glad that you and all others needing a spot have a place here and are welcome back to join in anytime they need it. We will be here and with ready greetings for you and others.

 

[HappyKitty]

Just sad my energy and hormones cant be regulated on its own anymore. Im tryna catch my energy but the weakness zap me out faster than I could catch it. And shouldnt mix hydrocortisone w omeperazole heh- meds didnt work at all.

Seriously tho, everytime I'm struggling with energy, I keep begging god not to take me away. 🥺

 

[Astrid78]

worried

 

[Lane]

My marriage to a British citizen was approved by the investigators, who didn't even fully investigate us (they never talked to me because I happened to be away when they came, but 2 minutes with my dad was apparently good enough. They are so nice.). I am so happy!!!

Congratulations to both of you!

 

[Lane]

I feel like I have to make some changes in my life and maybe it's time to go live with my fiance and get married in Utah. I wanted to get input from my 20 year old daughter and she's worried that noone will be able to see if she gets depressed and asked if we can talk about it at the end of summer. I've just been unhappy, stressed, worried. Don't like feeling like this. I have to do something.

 

[Lane]

worried

Hate this feeling, but it lessens for you Astrid.

 

[Auri]

Congratulations to both of you!

Thank you, Lane.

 

[LumberJack]

I feel like I’m trapped in a fate worse than death. I am so overwhelmed by my depression that I’m unable to do things commonly called “adulting.” Failure to adult has consequences that I don’t want but I don’t have the bandwidth to do those things when it is a victory if I can simply get out of bed and do basic hygiene. 😢. I am so very sad that I need a stronger word for it. Despair? No I’m not desperate as that would imply that I hope to get through. I just want out. Not going to do it tonight, but I’m starting to think timelines again.

 

[TragicReality]

I just gave up my dream to live in Belize. He started saying I need to buy everything myself, air conditioner, bed, washing machine etc.... no thanks. I finally found a page that describes their weather more realistically. Fom now until December, hot humid, so much so it's called ''oppressive''.... yeah no thanks I'll put up with winter. You can only take so many clothes off, but you can always put more on to stay warm. It's mixed snow here today, it was my moms birthday. It's usually nicer by now outside. Next week it's showing 17 degrees so I hope so. i have a really good landlord here so I'm just going to count my blessings. And my pain meds I have back. I was getting ready to give up on everything. I'm here to vent and read what I can and help if and when I can. I'm thankful for this forum, bless you all who are struggling too.

 

[TragicReality]

I feel like I’m trapped in a fate worse than death. I am so overwhelmed by my depression that I’m unable to do things commonly called “adulting.” Failure to adult has consequences that I don’t want but I don’t have the bandwidth to do those things when it is a victory if I can simply get out of bed and do basic hygiene. 😢. I am so very sad that I need a stronger word for it. Despair? No I’m not desperate as that would imply that I hope to get through. I just want out. Not going to do it tonight, but I’m starting to think timelines again.

All I can say is I know how bad depression can get, and I hope you find the strength to perservere through it, it's not easy at all. I know days I don't want to shower get dressed etc... I hope you feel better and don't blame yourself for not being able to ''adult'', many people can't do that, and those people are too idk what the word is, don't want to admit that life is so hard for them too. hugs.