How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[JMG]

I really hope you feel 100 percent in no time. You are a strong person, I believe but I'm sure this has taken you for a loop. Also you are definitely not fool but a kind, caring and smart person JMG. Sometimes it really does feel like life is testing us, doesn't it? Big 's.

Thank you Lane that was nice of you to say, I’m glad you don’t think I’m a fool and that you think I’m kind, caring, strong and smart too. Yup, it definitely feels like life is testing us sometimes, trying my best to stay focused on the “I’ll be that much stronger and better after the test is over” part for sure. Hope you are well, and tysm for those big hugs too, big hugs back to you as well

i hope you feel better soon

mike....

i hope you get over this cold or bug you have soon. it takes a lot out of you when an illness is prolonged. try to stay positive through this because you know eventually you'll feel better

mike....

Thank you so much Mike, yup you’re definitely right that being sick takes a lot out of you. It’s made me be looking forward to when I’m well again (of course, lol) but also it’s given me more motivation than ever to have a MUCH healthier lifestyle. I need to drop some pounds anyway for sure, and eating a lot better and getting some serious cardio going will help me get to the weight I want to be already.

Anyway ya I am definitely doing my best to stay positive about things, thank you for the encouragement/reminder about staying focused on that though I appreciate it a lot!

i went out yesterday to cruise a little intown. it was nice getting compliments on my 64 dodge. one older woman even had to shake my hand lol. i love how everyone stares at her when i punch her, today we have to do a little work on her. tomorrow we are going to follow our little tradition and go to a special ice cream place that makes their own ice cream, we only go in the car never never in the truck

Awesome, I’m so happy for you that you got to drive your dodge around town a bit, and that sounds very fun with going to get ice cream from that place that makes their own ice cream, I bet it tastes great.

Sorry to hear you had that intense wave of depression and anxiety yesterday, and for your experience with physical pain, I can’t even imagine what the physical pain part must be like to “live with” like that. I hope it will stay as low as it possibly can (wish I could take it all away for you of course) and also I am glad you are now feeling a bit better, I hope and pray that it will stay that way for you my kind, sweet, caring, strong, priceless and thoughtful friend! 😊

 

[TragicReality]

I feel like I’m trapped in a fate worse than death. I am so overwhelmed by my depression that I’m unable to do things commonly called “adulting.” Failure to adult has consequences that I don’t want but I don’t have the bandwidth to do those things when it is a victory if I can simply get out of bed and do basic hygiene. 😢. I am so very sad that I need a stronger word for it. Despair? No I’m not desperate as that would imply that I hope to get through. I just want out. Not going to do it tonight, but I’m starting to think timelines again.

I thought I sent a reply to you and I didn't... anyway I'm just going to say I know how bad depression can get and don't beat yourself up for not being able to ''adult'' it, people that don't have depression wouldn't admit that they struggle with it too, I hope you find strength to keep going and you feel better soon, hugs @LumberJack

 

[TragicReality]

oops didn't see that.

 

[Aurelia]

A finished painting

 

[Holding my breath]

A finished painting
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Ahh, so lovely. ☺️

 

[Holding my breath]

Just feeling a little low. I wish life could be better, I wish people could be nice to one another. What is there to be gained from constant conflict? Why is there never a moment where everything is right with the world. It makes me wonder about the human race. I try to be nice, try to make the right choices and decisions, I try to put others before myself, try to be understanding. Why is it that others don’t do this? Wouldn’t we all benefit if we were just nice to one another and accepted that we all have our differences? Are some people inherently evil? The world saddens me and I am too small to be able to make much of a difference, except for the few people that cross my path. I am not saying I am some sort of a saint, I just want people to be ok. That’s not much to ask, is it?

 

[HappyKitty]

ok perharps my meds take a while to work. I have been getting 7hrs sleep for one week at night. perharps one week of sleep dont just cut it, probably need 2 wks more. at least I got sleep immediately. 😺

my energy is still shit tho. I have hard time showering and changing posture. today I hope its not like that since Im well this morning. 😺

 

[AvidFan]

Defeated and miserable. I had the chance of doing some lucrative work testing an app, but when I initially looked into it, I needed more RAM on my phone to run it. After debating I bit the bullet and went and bought a new phone today (I was loathe to do this, nothing wrong with the old phone!) but I did the round trip and spent the money. Spent the literal hours it takes to set up a new phone (and one of those hours at least, is fiddling with a microscopic Sim card that won't go on the tiny tray and threatens to get flicked off the table into oblivion. I genuinely had a panic episode when I had 2 phones and couldn't for the life of me get the sim card back into either of them.. FFS) After all that they did this clever "Smart Switch" thing to transfer everything over to the new phone for a seamless experience. Yeah, right, after it did all that I spent several more hours trying to find my apps, fixing the ones that were broken, and dealing with other confusing issues. Must have spent 5 hours on this all told.

Then I thought I'd get down to business and look at the lucrative work having wasted so much time. You can imagine my language when it turns out this app is not available in the UK and I have no way off accessing it to do any work at all, and none of my time will be compensated for. If only I had known that 7 hours earlier when I decided to buy the new fucking phone that I didn't fucking need.

My brain is literally frazzled right now 😡🤯 And it's not even like the phone has any cool new features. Maybe a better camera, slightly quicker. After 2 weeks of SEO (another long saga, a business websites totally tanked in the Google rankings meaning I was losing work and in some trouble) my brain just wants to think of fluff and marshmallows.

I have yet another spare phone now, at least 🤔 One day I will buy a device and these automatic "seamless" experiences will actually be an improvement on asbolute hell. Well that's my Saturday gone 😢

 

[LumberJack]

Just feeling a little low. I wish life could be better, I wish people could be nice to one another. What is there to be gained from constant conflict?

I wish I could like this more than once. I also feel that way. What is to be gained from constant conflict is constant market for weapons dealers. And power over others. I’m convinced that the greed and power mentality is the real mental illness, but it’s operating at the societal level as opposed to just individual. Think how much conflict and violence would be avoided if we didn’t have to always have more and be more than someone else?

 

[LumberJack]

I feel better now. I’m having a hard time with sleep and that makes my emotions whip saw around. I tried to be productive today, but my body has other plans.

I’m having trauma flashbacks too, which is no fun. All I can do about that is note that those times are in the past and that I’m safe now. I don’t feel safe, though. I’m more like feeling guilty and victimized at the same time. How does that work? Did I abuse myself? And now I feel bad on both sides?

The reason I say this is better is because I’m having feelings, not blinded by pain that I can’t understand. Still a struggle but it’s not a feeling of drowning in it.

 

[KM76710]

A finished painting
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You can never go wrong including animals.

 

[Windhover]

Just bad enough to realize this situation isn't healthy for me. I'm tired of pretending.

 

[1964dodge]

Just sad my energy and hormones cant be regulated on its own anymore. Im tryna catch my energy but the weakness zap me out faster than I could catch it. And shouldnt mix hydrocortisone w omeperazole heh- meds didnt work at all.

Seriously tho, everytime I'm struggling with energy, I keep begging god not to take me away. 🥺

i hope god hears your prayer and helps you find something that works. please don't give up hope, i hope you stay here for decades to come

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

worried

why are you worried @Astrid78 ? i hope you can figure out what is bothering you .

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

I feel like I’m trapped in a fate worse than death. I am so overwhelmed by my depression that I’m unable to do things commonly called “adulting.” Failure to adult has consequences that I don’t want but I don’t have the bandwidth to do those things when it is a victory if I can simply get out of bed and do basic hygiene. 😢. I am so very sad that I need a stronger word for it. Despair? No I’m not desperate as that would imply that I hope to get through. I just want out. Not going to do it tonight, but I’m starting to think timelines again.

 

[1964dodge]

Just bad enough to realize this situation isn't healthy for me. I'm tired of pretending.

i'm sorry that you are still struggling, i hope you have better days ahead

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you Lane that was nice of you to say, I’m glad you don’t think I’m a fool and that you think I’m kind, caring, strong and smart too. Yup, it definitely feels like life is testing us sometimes, trying my best to stay focused on the “I’ll be that much stronger and better after the test is over” part for sure. Hope you are well, and tysm for those big hugs too, big hugs back to you as well




Thank you so much Mike, yup you’re definitely right that being sick takes a lot out of you. It’s made me be looking forward to when I’m well again (of course, lol) but also it’s given me more motivation than ever to have a MUCH healthier lifestyle. I need to drop some pounds anyway for sure, and eating a lot better and getting some serious cardio going will help me get to the weight I want to be already.

Anyway ya I am definitely doing my best to stay positive about things, thank you for the encouragement/reminder about staying focused on that though I appreciate it a lot!


Awesome, I’m so happy for you that you got to drive your dodge around town a bit, and that sounds very fun with going to get ice cream from that place that makes their own ice cream, I bet it tastes great.

Sorry to hear you had that intense wave of depression and anxiety yesterday, and for your experience with physical pain, I can’t even imagine what the physical pain part must be like to “live with” like that. I hope it will stay as low as it possibly can (wish I could take it all away for you of course) and also I am glad you are now feeling a bit better, I hope and pray that it will stay that way for you my kind, sweet, caring, strong, priceless and thoughtful friend! 😊

thank you so much for the compliments and well wishes, you do a great job staying positive even when you're sick

your friend

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

A finished painting
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wow, that looks awesome

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

pretty good. except t's after midnight and i'm trying to catch up here

mike

 

[HappyKitty]

but who knew since the diagnosis of adhd, my doc looked into my physiological record on detecting signs for low cortisol symptoms. its actually quite a life saviour like compared to my mum she can be naturally awake and do chores without feeling tired while she keeps nagging at me 24/7 at how slow I am...