Swinging all over the place. Struggled to sleep again, which isn't helping. Woke at 5am and then got back to sleep but at about 8.30am woke up feeling like I'd been hit by a truck, feeling tired, restless, broken and hopeless. Felt finished and trapped. Also felt extremely warm and temperature is only 16C.
Had a few coffees and started to get a little perspective (and cooled down). I've had a very busy long week with multiple frustrations and stresses, I'm bound to be tired, now have a chance to sit back and try not to worry for 3 days, there's nothing I can do about anything just now except try to self care and recharge somehow before it all starts again next week.
I have to remember how bad I felt 2 weeks ago and what my body has been going through. Every day is a victory at the moment, have to try to chalk up the small successes. Sometimes getting through the next 5 minutes is a win.