I second that. @Somebody Else xxx
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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Can't help but be concerned about my ability to continue to exist in this world. Energy provider wants almost a 30% increase next year and 12% in 2026. Mostly for green energy stuff and to discourage use of natural gas. I can't afford this. Most people I know can't. I'm not sure I want to exist anymore.
I keep throwing up. Everyday this is a small house. My mother sits on her phone. Usually from 6 am to about midnight non stop listening to reality TV on full volume. There is not a single room in the entire house that you can escape too. And it's everyday all-day. And I tell her it makes me sick because it's my sound sensitivity (I'm Aspie) but she thinks it's the funniest thing in the world. Yesterday I spent the entire evening throwing up from the migraine it has given me. And today she slept in a bit. But she's still being listening since 8 am. It's now 2pm, it has not stopped for even a second. She won't close a door. Wear headphones or be respectful. She honestly thinks it's so funny that it makes me sick and then mocks me about it.
I cannot take it anymore. I keep thinking about just dying to escape. Never mind all her other bullshit and games.
I cannot take it anymore. I keep thinking about just dying to escape. Never mind all her other bullshit and games.
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Busier and busier. In one way good, as the distraction can help and the money helps a lot... But not sure how long I can keep this up and find time to deal with none work things that need doing. Just keeping going for now and hoping I get better an am more able to manage the multitasking etc. The way I've been lately it's kind of a miracle I'm still even half way functional, but I need to stay that way.
my health is in the toilet and i know my time is coming probably within less than 5 years 10 at the most. i know longer think of suicide as seriously as i used to. i am in gods waiting room as well. but i agree with you. when you know time is limited it's best to do what you can to make the most of what time is left, because the only other option is to lay in bed and wait with no joy left
mike....
mike....
Me: I want to kms.
Also me: No I don’t!
M: Yes you do; we both know it’s only a matter of time.
A: Would you shut up? I have work to do.
M: You shut up. Let’s go get drunk. We’re going to get fired anyway for performance. Doesn’t getting wasted sound like more fun?
A: Last time we got drunk it was painful and depressing. Plus the hangover.
M: fine then, what about the weed dispensary? Just get a vape pen and nobody will notice.
A: no. Also I have work, dumbass. We can’t afford drugs or pdoc or antidepressants without money.
M: I want to kms.
Also me: No I don’t!
M: Yes you do; we both know it’s only a matter of time.
A: Would you shut up? I have work to do.
M: You shut up. Let’s go get drunk. We’re going to get fired anyway for performance. Doesn’t getting wasted sound like more fun?
A: Last time we got drunk it was painful and depressing. Plus the hangover.
M: fine then, what about the weed dispensary? Just get a vape pen and nobody will notice.
A: no. Also I have work, dumbass. We can’t afford drugs or pdoc or antidepressants without money.
M: I want to kms.
GRRRR! My damn advantage plan never updated their info to show that previous insurance was canceled. So my provider's bills are get rejected. Advantage plan has been updated, but will not reflect for 15 days. I guess the advantage plan has to actually resubmit the bill. Provider can't or it will be considered double billing. So I will have to call Aetna again after 15 business days. Why can't these damn companies do their job right.
Probably because the company is publicly traded, and customers don’t have the ability to switch. Meaning they don’t have to worry about competition, which makes customer retention irrelevant to their income statement. Therefore they don’t have to worry about keeping you happy. They do have to worry about shareholders. So the former gets shafted so that the shareholders make more money, which in turn translates to more money for management.
Weary. Just treated myself to pizza takeout as I had no energy to cook. My mood is very low, so I've gone into escape mode, watching old children's Sci Fi shows. I probably - definitely - need sleep and maybe I will feel better if I get some. But for now it's just a case of survive this evening until bedtime and make the best of it, no idea how I'm going to survive tomorrow or the next week or the next month, but I can get through tonight even if it means burying my head in the sand/escaping/distracting.
