How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Licorice]

Is anyone else blown away sometimes by the fact other people apparently do not want to die all the time? I was talking to my dad, who has gone through so much in his own life and I just assumed everyone battled suicidal ideation and I wasn’t fighting hard enough. I’ve been blaming myself for years thinking I just wasn’t strong enough or capable enough, and everyone else was managing their ideation and thoughts just fine.

oof.

YES!! I thought everybody thought about it all the time. How could one not? I thought it was normal. It still feels normal. I mean, I always just assumed it was something I would do sooner or later.

 

[Lane]

I'm not well. Really don't feel myself. If my leg stops playing up something else starts up, when the ribs settle down I reinjure myself in my sleep, I've lost my appetite and just feel down generally. Usual energy is not there and just feel out of it. Had a wave of nausea earlier in the day and had a massive anxiety spike that my body was shutting down (I don't think it is, I managed to put the bins out lol). Going to go to bed.

Hope you feel better Avid and had a decent sleep. Anxiety sucks.

 

[Lane]

Drained.

I don't really know exactly what's going as from a causal sense but it feels like sensory overload.

Everything is loud, body hurts, emotions all over the map

 

[Sunspots]

Frustrated. My partner was supposed to be having heart surgery on Friday but it's been postponed for the 2nd time. It's only for another 10 days but we were all geared up for Friday and had everything arranged. I had holiday booked at work so I could be around for him. It's such a stressful time and he's so poorly.

 

[AvidFan]

Things are just getting better and better. After a night of anxiety and nausea worrying about my health, I got up determined to tackle the day. Before the morning was even out I'd managed to break my one remaining pair of reading glasses (really need them for my screen based work). Crunch - somehow they got into a position where I ended up standing on them due to going in and out trying to sort the bins out. Now have an appointment on saturday and I think I'm going to need long vision prescription too, so could end up with £300 bill. I had been trying to put it off. The attrition of my coping resilience just seems to be stepping up - no matter what move I make, the universe has 3 more moves to get me back into check.

 

[puffymilk]

Hungry

 

[maybeicanheal]

Hungry

What will you eat? I’m having peanut butter toast and yogurt right now. Having a hard time honestly, so I’m reminding myself I just gotta get through it.

 

[Lane]

Stressed about a relationship with a friend. I want to text him, but also give him some space.

 

[Lane]

Frustrated. My partner was supposed to be having heart surgery on Friday but it's been postponed for the 2nd time. It's only for another 10 days but we were all geared up for Friday and had everything arranged. I had holiday booked at work so I could be around for him. It's such a stressful time and he's so poorly.

Sending positive thoughts to you and your partner. I hope some of your stress goes away.

 

[puffymilk]

What will you eat? I’m having peanut butter toast and yogurt right now. Having a hard time honestly, so I’m reminding myself I just gotta get through it.

Just finished my chicken sandwich

I'm sorry you feel that way, I hope you feel better soon

 

[Congratsbaby]

Egg shell okay

 

[Inastorm]

Fed up and paralysis in respect to reaching out to my friend, just not wanting to get knocked back again.

 

[maybeicanheal]

Fed up and paralysis in respect to reaching out to my friend, just not wanting to get knocked back again.

I really hope things work out. I understand the fear behind not wanting to face a rejection- I hope that isn't what occurs, but if it were to happen there are people here who care, and there will be people who care again. I'm working on learning to let things flow and feel my emotions again. If you need to talk or feel an emotion I'd like to listen.

 

[AvidFan]

Physically and mentally unwell. Can't run, have things wrong with me, and losing my physical health has always been the point where I envisage CTB being a viable option as opposed to living without my health. Not there yet, but I'm worried this is the beginning of some kind of slide that I won't get back from and then I can't guarantee that I will stick around.

 

[1964dodge]

YES!! I thought everybody thought about it all the time. How could one not? I thought it was normal. It still feels normal. I mean, I always just assumed it was something I would do sooner or later.

 

[1964dodge]

Frustrated. My partner was supposed to be having heart surgery on Friday but it's been postponed for the 2nd time. It's only for another 10 days but we were all geared up for Friday and had everything arranged. I had holiday booked at work so I could be around for him. It's such a stressful time and he's so poorly.

i hope the surgery goes well and he recovers quickly

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Fed up and paralysis in respect to reaching out to my friend, just not wanting to get knocked back again.

 

[Windhover]

I'm worried this is the beginning of some kind of slide that I won't get back from and then I can't guarantee that I will stick around.

This is a terrible feeling which sneaks up and over me as well. 😕 I don't know how to get it to go away. I hope the anxiety gets knocked down and you can get feeling better AvidFan. Also I'm sorry you stepped on your reading glasses, and are worried about the eye doc visit. It's stressful when there are some appoinments that hust have to happen.

 

[Windhover]

I'm worried; more than a bit concerned about my long term mental health.

 

[KM76710]

Frustrated. My partner was supposed to be having heart surgery on Friday but it's been postponed for the 2nd time. It's only for another 10 days but we were all geared up for Friday and had everything arranged. I had holiday booked at work so I could be around for him. It's such a stressful time and he's so poorly.

All the best wishes for good things with the surgery, that is tough without having a delay on top of all else. I hope for the best for all all around with the procedures delayed but coming up.