How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inanimate]

I want to die today. I wanted to die yesterday, too, but I’m definitely feeling it today, tomorrow, and onward. I won’t get into my reasons, but they certainly exist and will continue to exist as long as I live.

To clarify, I made a costly mistake, and it was about the last fucking thing I needed. So I felt crushed, and still do.

 

[CrashBandicoot]

To clarify, I made a costly mistake, and it was about the last fucking thing I needed. So I felt crushed, and still do.

 

[JanisSPK]

I'm really good except for an event this am that I've had time to process with all day and feeling ok about it now.

 

[seabird]

Mine aren't escape dreams, mine are mainly about losing the person in the relationship and searching in the dream for them.

What helps me a little is having something to look at as soon as I wake up. Where I look at my tattoo, this serves as a reset of sorts and helps me come too.

I don't know if you have watched that movie 'inception'. They have these objects that they use to tell whether they are dreaming or not. Might be an idea to try something like that, a picture, object, something that might help to 'reset' upon waking.

Weirdly similar. In my dreams, I'm tring all the windows, etc. trying over and over to get outside the building in order to get to him. Sometimes he's on his own, sometimes he's with my son; they're visible but I can't get out.
I have some Greek worry beeds I could put by the bedside. Thank you for the idea. I am also considering getting my hair cut off, died a new colour, and making that symbolic of a fresh start.

 

[1964dodge]

I want to die today. I wanted to die yesterday, too, but I’m definitely feeling it today, tomorrow, and onward. I won’t get into my reasons, but they certainly exist and will continue to exist as long as I live.

 

[1964dodge]

the pain in my head, is dragging me down, further. x

 

[1964dodge]

In 4 weeks from tomorrow, I'll be in Maine.

don't forget the maine lobster

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

not doing great, my doctor appointment didn't go well yesterday, not bad just not happy. i will update on my update thread this weekend. good thing is we finally had our lobsters today. very sweet and tender and affordable ( relatively lol ) we ordered 12 small lobsters , one of the perks about living in maine

mike

 

[cinnnamonflakez]

I wish I had a somewhere to go scream my lungs out. But there's not a single place in this town where I can be alone.

 

[ClassicsFan]

don't forget the maine lobster

mike....

I won't forget.

 

[KM76710]

Happy when the weather forecast is wrong and it’s actually hotter and sunnier.

Here it has been raining and cooler than normal, great weather for Texas during Summer, just relax and enjoy the storms time for me.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Stuffed.

 

[Inanimate]

Lonely, unengaged, fatigued. There doesn’t seem to be anything to turn to other than seeking validation here and escaping into sleep.

 

[Gard]

It's interesting you mention this. Since about a year ago, although it'd been coming on for longer. I found without trying that i didn't want to have much alcohol. I imbibe a tiny amount once in a while, but have noticed the enjoyment of any more than a couple of sips is just gone.

The cherries on the trees have started to ferment a little. I ate three handfuls yesterday. And until evening, I felt drunk That's how you can feel drunk in a natural environment. And that's only possible in summer.
I'm glad you don't drink much. But you really don't even need a couple of sips.

Happy when the weather forecast is wrong and it’s actually hotter and sunnier.

Weather forecasts are a legal form of fraud

I don't know if you have watched that movie 'inception'. They have these objects that they use to tell whether they are dreaming or not. Might be an idea to try something like that, a picture, object, something that might help to 'reset' upon waking.

I like this movie. You mentioned that they use a certain object to determine reality or dreams. I used that too at one time.
I also like the idea in the movie of how they show the imprint of an idea in a thought—that really impressed me. And it works. That's why I use a trance state of mind. And that's why I choose good movies where I can learn something or relax. Because almost any movie is a trance state. Have you thought about that?

I wish I had a somewhere to go scream my lungs out. But there's not a single place in this town where I can be alone.

I found a solution: I scream into my pillow. No one can hear me, I don't bother anyone, and I scream!

There doesn’t seem to be anything to turn to other than seeking validation here and escaping into sleep.

Well, just being here is already good!

 

[Ankha555]

I feel extremely ugly. My hair, face, teeth… they’re all awful. I’m embarrassed to be me and look like me. I’m in public rn and I feel so humiliated knowing that everyone can see me. I wish that I could just stay in my room all day long.

 

[Ankha555]

There isn’t a single thing about me that isn’t disgusting and repulsive.

 

[Gard]

There isn’t a single thing about me that isn’t disgusting and repulsive.

You have bacteria inside you that produce vitamins They help you live. Take care of them
That's at least one thing that isn't disgusting.

 

[JanisSPK]

not doing great, my doctor appointment didn't go well yesterday, not bad just not happy. i will update on my update thread this weekend. good thing is we finally had our lobsters today. very sweet and tender and affordable ( relatively lol ) we ordered 12 small lobsters , one of the perks about living in maine

mike

🤗✨😉I’m sorry to hear about the not so good md visit though happily jealous about your lobster feasting!!☺️

 

[Bergerac]

working on an exciting project for the community but oh God, it's hard.

 

[AvidFan]

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This is Dopey the Seagull.

Lot of dopeys here but haven't really noticed the screeching much as they live on my city office building these days.