How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inastorm]

There isn’t a single thing about me that isn’t disgusting and repulsive.

What kind of self image would you like to have?

What I mean is:
a. Would you like to be content with the way you currently look - if not, what is making you feel like this?

b. Would you like to look a certain way, if so what does that look like to you.

c. If you looked the way you wanted to, what different would this make to your life?

For example, I've always wanted a six pack core but honestly, even if I had one, I'm not sure how much of a difference that would make to my life. And if I was more attractive, where women would flock to me, I would be concerned of the type of people I would attract. People who are only interested in the surface.

 

[Inastorm]

Lot of dopeys here but haven't really noticed the screeching much as they live on my city office building these days.

You'll have to watch your chips with seaside seagulls. I went to Cornwall once and they were a nightmare at taking chips out of your lap. Hope your holiday is going Okay, what's the weather like?

 

[AvidFan]

Sad really. Not been sleeping in the hotel room and it's getting to me. Physical symptoms are all over the place. I noticed my eye was inflamed when I got here and saw reflection in bright mirror light, so taking drops. Rest of body is pretty inflamed too. Neither movement nor rest seems to help at the moment.

I went to the village where I lived once yesterday and went in the cafe. The thing I love about North Wales is nothing ever changes. Pretty much everything - bar maybe a changed shop front and staff in cafe - is the exact same as when I left 5 years ago. I realised I've done my grieving over living there and will be able to visit and enjoy again instead of it just being a painful reminder of loss. I don't know how much time I might have left but I would like to come again. I am going to spend the day there today, have lunch and a hot chocolate and enjoy it as best I can with all my health problems.

 

[AvidFan]

You'll have to watch your chips with seaside seagulls. I went to Cornwall once and they were a nightmare at taking chips out of your lap. Hope your holiday is going Okay, what's the weather like?

One landed on my head once and grabbed my sandwich. I have wised up since. Weather is mixed but tolerable. Wind was insane out on the coast yesterday. Sunny spells and rain showers.

 

[Lane]

Feeling good here in Boston. The fireworks were so beautiful and loud it shook your body. Also went on the Freedom Tour that gave a 2 hour talk and walk of American history. My fiance and I are getting along too, so that's good. Hope everyone here is doing as well as possible.

 

[JanisSPK]

There isn’t a single thing about me that isn’t disgusting and repulsive.

I know These things just aren't true. YOU are not these "things" you have listed out and you aren't repulsive either. And you and I would go into an exchange about hair. I lost my waist length curls about 7 years ago. It's just old thin ratty chin length now. I have figured out how to live with it without it driving me crazy about my looks (most of the time).

 

[Lane]

Sad really. Not been sleeping in the hotel room and it's getting to me. Physical symptoms are all over the place. I noticed my eye was inflamed when I got here and saw reflection in bright mirror light, so taking drops. Rest of body is pretty inflamed too. Neither movement nor rest seems to help at the moment.

I went to the village where I lived once yesterday and went in the cafe. The thing I love about North Wales is nothing ever changes. Pretty much everything - bar maybe a changed shop front and staff in cafe - is the exact same as when I left 5 years ago. I realised I've done my grieving over living there and will be able to visit and enjoy again instead of it just being a painful reminder of loss. I don't know how much time I might have left but I would like to come again. I am going to spend the day there today, have lunch and a hot chocolate and enjoy it as best I can with all my health problems.

I hope you feelbetter Avid and glad you enjoyed being in North Wales. When I think of where I grew up and especially the house I grew up in I feel a loss for past. It's bittersweet.

 

[JanisSPK]

I just drove in from Santa Fe, NM, a couple of days ago and missed all the insane rain and flooding now happening in central Texas the last 2 days. I heard 27 inches around Kerrville etc. I'm grateful that I missed it. I'm flying back to SF on the 14th for a few more days there and then driving back again with a buddy who'll be visiting here with me for 2 or 3 weeks. It's been quite a summer so far.

 

[Beautiful Disaster]

Sad, else i would not be here.
Relationship ups and downs.

 

[future⩍]

i'm a worthless piece of shit

miss u billie

 

[Faded]

Hopeless. I try to connect with people but end up turning them away because I’m such a repulsive person. Who can blame them, I have done terrible things and don’t deserve any friends. IRL bad karma run.

 

[maybeicanheal]

What kind of self image would you like to have?

What I mean is:
a. Would you like to be content with the way you currently look - if not, what is making you feel like this?

b. Would you like to look a certain way, if so what does that look like to you.

c. If you looked the way you wanted to, what different would this make to your life?

For example, I've always wanted a six pack core but honestly, even if I had one, I'm not sure how much of a difference that would make to my life. And if I was more attractive, where women would flock to me, I would be concerned of the type of people I would attract. People who are only interested in the surface.

This is such great advice. Thank you for posting this, it really helped me get some understanding and insight into my own self image.

 

[seabird]

maine lobster

This made me want Maine lobster.

 

[seabird]

I'm glad you don't drink much. But you really don't even need a couple of sips.

There's no need to worry about it with me, but thanks Gard. I lost my sweet, amazing brother to it and my ex-partner drinks every night, so I've become turned off to it. Tragic results for lives that are either lost or ruined, due for the most part to alcohol.

 

[seabird]

Little hope, but gave up on socialising which is for now a relief as I can relax in solitude most of the time if that makes sense. Feeling like I will get some decent work done but for what purpose other than maybe some money. It's good for me to have some rules about self-care. My various exercise disciplines or whatever they are, regular meals and hygeine make me feel better. I'm very depressed but holding.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Bloated.

 

[Inastorm]

Little hope, but gave up on socialising which is for now a relief as I can relax in solitude most of the time if that makes sense. Feeling like I will get some decent work done but for what purpose other than maybe some money. It's good for me to have some rules about self-care. My various exercise disciplines or whatever they are, regular meals and hygeine make me feel better. I'm very depressed but holding.

Glad your holding on, cant have you fulling apart, as your posts help keep me together.

 

[Inastorm]

I've got another head doctor appointment coming up. Day before my 50th birthday . I'm a bit anxious about it, not my 50th, as I'm getting my tattoo done, but anxious about the appointment. I forgot loads last time that maybe would have been helpful for him to know.

 

[Inanimate]

exploited, discarded, aggrieved but resigned

 

[cymbele]

I've got another head doctor appointment coming up. Day before my 50th birthday . I'm a bit anxious about it, not my 50th, as I'm getting my tattoo done, but anxious about the appointment. I forgot loads last time that maybe would have been helpful for him to know.

Write a list starting today of all the stuff you want to talk about. That way you can not worry about forgetting anything