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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Rough. Last night it was sleep onset insomnia again. Horrible knowing I'd been awake since 4.30am, it was 2am and still awake. How can a human being actually continue to function like this? Had to take some stuff that usually helps a little and doesn't cause bad side effects - l theanine and Nytol. Worked a bit. Resting heart rate is going down, watch showed some recovery overnight, but I've got 2 stacked days and I've possibly had 8 hours of sleep all week. Not despairing though. Got a long weekend planned in, and soon I will be counting down the days to Christmas and a break. It can't come soon enough!
Angry and depressed. I completely lost it with the group home last night. Threw my dinner across the room and screamed that I wanted to die. Honestly surprised they did not call 911 and have me go for a psych eval. If anything else happens I’m going to go for a psych eval on my own. I’m just not coping. It has all become too much.
Sorry @cev77 that your going through this.
Just to give you some reassurance that most people lose it like this, you didnt throw your dinner at another person. It sounds like your quite reflective at the moment and recognise what happened. Dont be angry with yourself, this was an internal action of all your feelings bubbling over. As long as your not hurting or scaring your house mates its fine. Hope your okay.
Just to give you some reassurance that most people lose it like this, you didnt throw your dinner at another person. It sounds like your quite reflective at the moment and recognise what happened. Dont be angry with yourself, this was an internal action of all your feelings bubbling over. As long as your not hurting or scaring your house mates its fine. Hope your okay.
Feeling okay and still good about having some plans (haven't yet set up times for these but I'm making progress), as well as reaching out to people when I'm lonely. Want to be more disciplined with time mgt, but to do that, first I need tools or education on how to estimate how long things will take. I usually take my intuitive guess and multiply that by 2 or even 2.5 depending on size. Even after this adjustment, the variance is insane. A task that I would estimate at 4 hours could end up occupying anywhere from 40 minutes to 12 hours of my time.
Probably need to get back into the Pomodoro method, which is a time management strategy characterized by alternating periods of work/break with the same amount of time for each, usually 25/5 for ~ 90 min and then a longer break before another 1.5 hr block. Currently getting nowhere with this tho. I can ignore reminders on my phone even if they are timers or alarms that I have to go shut off on the phone. Hyperfocus means I will just let the damn thing go and not even notice the thing making noise. This also makes staying hydrated and stopping to stretch often enough into near impossible goals.
Probably need to get back into the Pomodoro method, which is a time management strategy characterized by alternating periods of work/break with the same amount of time for each, usually 25/5 for ~ 90 min and then a longer break before another 1.5 hr block. Currently getting nowhere with this tho. I can ignore reminders on my phone even if they are timers or alarms that I have to go shut off on the phone. Hyperfocus means I will just let the damn thing go and not even notice the thing making noise. This also makes staying hydrated and stopping to stretch often enough into near impossible goals.
I beat the public transport system today. 19.30, looked at live tracker it said my bus was due at 19.55 (timetabled for 19.43). I thought I'd go out early and just see if any other buses turned up. It was actually my bus that turned up. Got on it, set off as timetabled. 10 minutes later it was still showing up as due in 2 minutes from the stop we'd left behind 10 minutes ago... Who designs this crap? It's barely ever right and when it is I think it's just coincidence. I mean you can sync the bus with GPS things these days? But apparently they spend millions on apps that just make shit up.
Anyway I ordered pizza from the bus, and had only been in 5 minutes when the pizza was at the door.
No commute till next Wednesday now so can relax and watch some TV now I'm full of pizza 🍕🍕🍕
Anyway I ordered pizza from the bus, and had only been in 5 minutes when the pizza was at the door.
No commute till next Wednesday now so can relax and watch some TV now I'm full of pizza 🍕🍕🍕
