How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[chiastic_slide]

Morning. Trying to stay in the feeling of yesterday. Had a few hours of calm in the afternoon. Had an hour in the morning where the brain worked. Been so exhausted that I forget how to do what I’m doing when I do the dishes or in the shower.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Hot.

 

[ChimeraMonster]

Im in my university class rn. Its late, Im hungry, this teacher is shit. I dont get it. Springboot should be easy but its burning my brain. I have no more meds, im poor, and im in debt.
And im almost 30.

Yeah im miserable

 

[cymbele]

The pain in my leg with the hip that’s gone is killing me and clouding my perspective. Usually it’s fine but sometimes I strain it like I did today. I should make my own thread but right now with both my hip and leg spasming it’s unusual. Maybe tomorrow I’ll try to make a new thread. Even coughing causes pain.
but otherwise I had a good day. Love to all.

 

[Suyon]

I’m emotionally okay today, but I ended up injuring a ligament from my arm to my shoulder... it hurts a lot and I can barely move now, right when I was finally staying focused on the gym :')

 

[Windhover]

A bit worn from carrying sadness and pain and ready to set them down

 

[Deadsoon]

I'm fed up with everyone and everything. I'm fed up with living. How many times does the world have to show me it is not meant for me? The world doesn't want me here, and I don't want to be here. All the risks I took in my life have failed. I feel like I was destined to fail in life because I was supposed to take the ultimate risk and end it all. To be honest, I was supposed to die at birth, and I'm being punished for escaping it. Death has been following me ever since, making my life a living hell.

 

[Inanimate]

Already dead is the feeling. My General Psychology final is this Monday, though I already have an A for the class. I’d rather take a final for life. Maybe the stakes would seem higher then.

 

[chiastic_slide]

In the park, on a bench, in the shade. A cold breeze. Feeling pretty okay in the moment.

 

[chiastic_slide]

A bit of worrying status update from the nurse that redressed my surgery wound. I’ll spare you the details, but “I really don’t know what they (the surgeon) were thinking” is not something you want to hear.

I don’t think I even have the mental energy to worry about this, so I‘ll just wait to hear how it looks on Monday.

Making some good food for lunch, hoping for another calm afternoon.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Sad knowing that my birthday is over.

 

[heandl]

i wish i wasn't chronically ill

 

[Angie]

I have a nasty headache from sinus/allergies. I've ordered a different kind of allergy medicine as Allegra doesn't seem to be working.

Always something.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m sad and anxious. I guess I can’t say it’s unbearable because I am bearing it. So far, that is. I’m discovering new levels of pain that I never thought a human could sustain. I’m wondering why I haven’t just slipped into a coma by now.

 

[AvidFan]

I’m sad and anxious. I guess I can’t say it’s unbearable because I am bearing it. So far, that is. I’m discovering new levels of pain that I never thought a human could sustain. I’m wondering why I haven’t just slipped into a coma by now.

I'm feeling similarly at the moment. Sorry you are feeling this too.

 

[Windhover]

I was going to go out today but haven't managed to open the door. Trying to see it as a temporary aversion rather than anxiety winning another round. Am an emotional messed up me today while fighting off the shame. After it gts dark and cool I'll go out for my usual solo run. A short run is better than nothing because it'll lift my spirits.

hugs to anyone who wants them

 

[AvidFan]

I was going to go out today but haven't managed to open the door. Trying to see it as a temporary aversion rather than anxiety winning another round. Am an emotional messed up me today while fighting off the shame. After it gts dark and cool I'll go out for my usual solo run. A short run is better than nothing because it'll lift my spirits.

hugs to anyone who wants them

Sorry you are emotional and messed up today. I hope the run lifts you - take a few strides for me!

 

[Windhover]

Thank you. I'll add a few strides with you all in mind @AvidFan and the SF community. I haven't been doing any strides for the plast few months, just my steady slow pace for runs and on other days some walking.

 

[chiastic_slide]

I do worry. And I blame myself. Which is ridiculous, I have no say in how the operation was done. But if I wasn’t so exhausted.. Don’t see how that would’ve changed anything. Also I guess the worst case scenario is that I need new stitches. I hope.

Going out to try to find a perfect park bench like the one yesterday.

 

[cymbele]

Guess I have to invite my needy friend to dinner. Somewhat resentful of having to do it but he is needy and desperate. I wish I didn't feel obligated.