How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Nobody should experience this much stress on a daily basis. My body is destroying itself with stress. The pain makes me stressed and the pain flares worse in response to stress. Feel sad that I unfortunately have a body that just causes itself pain instead of collapsing with a simple heart attack. I should be dead and wish I was.

Sorry that youre living with that pain Avid. I hope you can get some relief real soon.

 

[Lane]

Some nights I feel anxious and lonely so I force myself to go to bed early, like 7pm. Before that I pace around my house for like an hour. I dont think this is healthy behavior.

 

[AvidFan]

Some nights I feel anxious and lonely so I force myself to go to bed early, like 7pm. Before that I pace around my house for like an hour. I dont think this is healthy behavior.

I sometimes feel like it but would wake up before 9pm. I'm sorry about whatever is going on, sounds like a lot of anxiety and trying to deal with it 🥺

 

[DarkNightshade]

I'm feeling okay.

 

[seabird]

Being unable to permanantly get away from this city/suburb means eventually I will lose my sanity

 

[SillyOldBear]

I have eaten myself to death. I just wish it would come soon and not be painful.
Ladies and gents.....eat your veggies!

 

[Lane]

I sometimes feel like it but would wake up before 9pm. I'm sorry about whatever is going on, sounds like a lot of anxiety and trying to deal with it 🥺

Thanks Avid.

 

[ravens]

Feeling kind of guilty but trying not to about being off work with a back injury. I made a mistake, I didn't report it right away. Worked 1 day after it happened without saying anything to coworkers. I showed up next week and realized it had gotten worse and I couldnt work through it anymore. IT honestly probably looks so faked to them and I would understand why it looks that way.

Management has been ok at times at other times reminding me it's a minor injury and others in the company can barely put of their boots in the morning. That's exactly why I am taking the time to heal, I don't want to be one of those guys in the future. I want to live a good life but I know my career is just hard on the body, period. Also, the safety guy at our company could have given me the steps earlier instead of 3 weeks later on how a return to work program is supposed to work, so it's not like I'm the only one making mistakes here. At the end of the day I have to remind myself these are all just coworkers and I'm just trying to heal and get back to work and my active life and this is what I had to do even if it's not perfect.

 

[AvidFan]

Wishing this entire universe had never sprung into its stupid existence. Or at least my part of it. My parents got married and wanted a baby in 1961. It took 9 years to conceive me. That's stupid and ridiculous in itself, but the knock on effect is, if I'd been born in 1961 I would be in so much of a better position as I'd be in a position to retire now. As it is I don't think I'll make it through the next 13 years.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Wishing this entire universe had never sprung into its stupid existence. Or at least my part of it. My parents got married and wanted a baby in 1961. It took 9 years to conceive me. That's stupid and ridiculous in itself, but the knock on effect is, if I'd been born in 1961 I would be in so much of a better position as I'd be in a position to retire now. As it is I don't think I'll make it through the next 13 years.

I can relate about not wanting to have sprung into existence. My parents wanted two kids. The first one was still born. If he had lived I never would have been born. I so wish he had lived.

 

[LumberJack]

Wishing this entire universe had never sprung into its stupid existence. Or at least my part of it.

I can relate about not wanting to have sprung into existence.

I have felt this way since before I was in grade school. My thoughts were more about how my parents could have considered birth control if they didn’t want any kids. Probably not in that formulation when I was only 6 years old, but it was the same idea translated into the capabilities of a 6 year old brain.

 

[LumberJack]

Sad. Really, really super sad. I am so sad that I can’t think of a stronger word so I just have to throw adjectives in. It’s probably a good time for me to start winding down for the night.

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling a bit positive

 

[Lane]

I noticed wet spots on the ceiling in my daughters room. My friend is going to check it out later today. But I really hope its not the roof.

 

[puffymilk]

A bit worried

 

[SillyOldBear]

Really wishing I were dead

 

[LumberJack]

Really wishing I were dead

Me too.

I mean, not that I also wish you were dead, 🤪 but that I also wish that I was dead.

(don’t mind me; I woke up with morbid sense of humor set to intensity level 11.)

 

[seabird]

The thoughts are back so that's not good or maybe it is good. I don't like much of myself anymore. Do I really need to put judgemental adjectives on my statements about feelings; no, but when I feel bad that can be part of what happens. I am so sad and isolated from nature and myself; I need to get out of here, out of my current living situation into someplace near the ocean, or what I mean is at least with access to it. I don't have the confidence to do so. The thoughts are I could km. Or go on a journey and km somewhere far away so as not to leave a mess for The Landlord.

Thanks for making me laugh @LumberJack. I live with someone who let's it be know dark humour is Not Appreciated and so I have to be very quiet. : (

 

[AvidFan]

Very tired. My eyes are on fire. I cannot work out how many hours I've been awake but it's a lot. Like over 36 hours I think. Going to go to bed before the football and hope people don't decide to start all night celebrations or commiserations 🥺

 

[AvidFan]

The thoughts are back so that's not good or maybe it is good. I don't like much of myself anymore. Do I really need to put judgemental adjectives on my statements about feelings; no, but when I feel bad that can be part of what happens. I am so sad and isolated from nature and myself; I need to get out of here, out of my current living situation into someplace near the ocean, or what I mean is at least with access to it. I don't have the confidence to do so. The thoughts are I could km. Or go on a journey and km somewhere far away so as not to leave a mess for The Landlord.

Thanks for making me laugh @LumberJack. I live with someone who let's it be know dark humour is Not Appreciated and so I have to be very quiet. : (

I hope you don't go away for that but hope you can get somewhere better for you. Sorry to hear the thoughts are back. Stay safe @seabird