How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

I'm sorry and it is scary how this illness has flared back up so violently. What do you think would be best @AvidFan, if a friend was in the situation like you are, and you were advising them? Keep us posted as well as you can.

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[Windhover]

I'm feelng sort of upset, perhaps it's anxiety.

 

[puffymilk]

Truly feeling like shit

 

[Cilla]

You are not alone
😭😭

 

[Lostman85]

While it's true that you'd be less likely to do something drastic around others than while alone, that's not exactly what I was getting at. Being with other people, just having another or a few other heartbeats in the room, is often healing if we let it be. I disagree with the rest of your reasons. How do I know? Because I do it, too. The way I sort of work with these feelings of just being a burden to everyone around me is to look at it from the other person's side. Let's say someone in my family called me for help with a psychiatric or emotional crisis. Would I feel burdened? No, I would be honored that they trusted me, and I would love to help!

The thing is that people in general want to help one another. There are, of course, sociopaths, Narcissistic PD affected individuals, and others with a trauma history that has taught them to make sure to get what's "mine" before anyone else can take it from them. These might be a significant portion of humans when taken as a whole, but really this is much more rare than our depression wants us to imagine. Therefore, for the most part the people who I love also love me and, like myself, would not be burdened if I should need help. When I look at it this way, it's sort of like I'm denying everyone the opportunity to help if I don't reach out. At this point, I realize you have an endless array of counter-reasons, but I'm not trying to convince you. Instead I'm trying to present another perspective, because this is what has helped me start to climb out of this hell I'm in with depression.

thank you lumberjack. I appreciate it

 

[LumberJack]

Well, I've lost most of the lift I had felt this morning. At the same time, I don't have as much intensity around the feeling of paralysis that has troubled me since I lost my job. I'm doing better with physical self care such as exercise and nutrition. And yet the idea of suicide is dangerously seductive. I'm just waiting to die as it is. I would be missed, but knowing when my appointment with the grim reaper is scheduled would be the one thing I could look forward to right now.

 

[may71]

Sry im so down and sry im causing problems here to.

You don't have to apologize for being down, and you're not causing any problems here.

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[Lostman85]

You don't have to apologize for being down, and you're not causing any problems here.

Yeah i am causing problems here just hopefully not for long. I don't intend on hurting people here but seems my feelings are to much. I don't like when others are feeling depressed or hurt cause of my words of how im feeling. I wish I could hold it in but im in a bad spot where I cant function correctly or my mental state is out of control. It doesn't matter nomore cause im tired and worn out. Im going to try and hide my feelings from everyone for now on. Im stressing,be depressed, or i won't try and hurt myself again. Im gonna be perfectly fine. So anybody feeling depressed or suicidal think before you act. Is it really that bad were your going to be gone forever. It might be bad at that moment but give a few days and I can say you won't feel the same way. Everyone stay safe be careful and take of yourselves. more people care bout you more than you know. If you think nobody does well SF does. Your not alone. have a good night all

 

[Suyon]

I’m crying so much; I just lost the cat who brought joy to the whole house. I haven’t slept at all, so I’m just crying, and I feel guilty for not being able to save him.

 

[Angie]

I’m crying so much; I just lost the cat who brought joy to the whole house. I haven’t slept at all, so I’m just crying, and I feel guilty for not being able to save him.

So sorry for your loss.

 

[AvidFan]

I’m crying so much; I just lost the cat who brought joy to the whole house. I haven’t slept at all, so I’m just crying, and I feel guilty for not being able to save him.

I am so sorry 😟

 

[AvidFan]

Still alive somehow. Last night I was on the verge of going to emergency room I felt so unwell. I've managed about 20 minutes sleep in the last 6 days which is one thing, but also had severe anxiety, restless legs, abdominal cramps, bad nausea, alternating gut symptoms, no appetite, feeling warm then cold.... I've managed to eat today and am keeping food down, nausea has eased off a little. Not sure if I'm out of the woods but if I could get some sleep I'd have more idea. No idea if I've had a bug on top of UTI, antibiotic side effects, food poisoning or just my body packing up with stress. Fingers crossed I can keep moving in the right direction.

 

[puffymilk]

Grateful

 

[DarkNightshade]

Motivated

 

[Aurelia]

There have been two versions of me.

Version 1: I love you!!! Yes, I'd love to do this and that for you! I love spending time with you!

Version 2: I truly don't care. Leave me alone. And no, I won't do a damn thing for you.

 

[Lane]

Still alive somehow. Last night I was on the verge of going to emergency room I felt so unwell. I've managed about 20 minutes sleep in the last 6 days which is one thing, but also had severe anxiety, restless legs, abdominal cramps, bad nausea, alternating gut symptoms, no appetite, feeling warm then cold.... I've managed to eat today and am keeping food down, nausea has eased off a little. Not sure if I'm out of the woods but if I could get some sleep I'd have more idea. No idea if I've had a bug on top of UTI, antibiotic side effects, food poisoning or just my body packing up with stress. Fingers crossed I can keep moving in the right direction.

 

[Lane]

I’m crying so much; I just lost the cat who brought joy to the whole house. I haven’t slept at all, so I’m just crying, and I feel guilty for not being able to save him.

I bet he knew you loved him @Suyon. Very sorry for your loss.

 

[AvidFan]

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Thanks @Lane

 

[Aurelia]

My husband is trying to intimidate me into contacting him. He says it's about divorce papers. BS. You know my address. If you want to send divorce papers, I don't need to call you, message you, or see you. So if you truly want a divorce, send them using the proper channels and watch me sign those bitches quicker than you can blink because, trust me, I've wanted to. But if this so called urgent need to speak to me is about something else and you're just trying to manipulate me in some way (which I'd be willing to bet you are), you can kick rocks, because I'm not contacting you for a damned thing.