How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[sightseer]

Do you suffer from anxiety? Sometimes I convince myself how I feel is not normal but actually I think it's my anxiety talking.

Funny thing is that I actually do. But I don't know, sometimes I get so confused with so many diagnoses... I also suffer from burning brain, and I'm feeling it right now, I think it's related to anxiety now that I think about it...

 

[Aurelia]

I tried to do some schoolwork. By the time I was done, I found myself thinking, "I have to stop because I can't take this". I'm talking immense anxiety, because I have no idea what is actually happening in this course and what I'm supposed to do. I have no clue about hypotheses, sampling methods, and procedures. I couldn't choose my own topic. It's some boring sounding shit on misinformation and myth busting, whatever the fuck that means...and then I get to design an experiment around something I have no idea about, and hence, can't fully focus on. Somehow, I always end up pulling shit out of my ass, so I'm guessing that's what will happen. But if I fail this course, I'll never hear the end of it, even though I have more important things like my health to worry about. But that doesn't seem to matter. Not to my family. Money and financial stability is more important. Nevermind that I still have voices telling me what the fuck to do every day...that I'm trying really hard to ignore, by the way. What kind of financial stability can there possibly be if I can't even get that part normalized? Am I supposed to go to work with voices talking to me or how exactly is that supposed to work? The fact that I can barely even manage this course right now is a miracle, let alone a job. Anyway, I felt like complete shit after I made an attempt at it earlier. I don't know what it was, probably mostly anxiety, but not just. I was also utterly miserable and without focus. I took my meds and all I can do is sit here and try to distract myself now. That's what I get for attempting something normal.

 

[Dalida]

I tried to do some schoolwork. By the time I was done, I found myself thinking, "I have to stop because I can't take this". I'm talking immense anxiety, because I have no idea what is actually happening in this course and what I'm supposed to do. I have no clue about hypotheses, sampling methods, and procedures. I couldn't choose my own topic. It's some boring sounding shit on misinformation and myth busting, whatever the fuck that means...and then I get to design an experiment around something I have no idea about, and hence, can't fully focus on. Somehow, I always end up pulling shit out of my ass, so I'm guessing that's what will happen. But if I fail this course, I'll never hear the end of it, even though I have more important things like my health to worry about. But that doesn't seem to matter. Not to my family. Money and financial stability is more important. Nevermind that I still have voices telling me what the fuck to do every day...that I'm trying really hard to ignore, by the way. What kind of financial stability can there possibly be if I can't even get that part normalized? Am I supposed to go to work with voices talking to me or how exactly is that supposed to work? The fact that I can barely even manage this course right now is a miracle, let alone a job. Anyway, I felt like complete shit after I made an attempt at it earlier. I don't know what it was, probably mostly anxiety, but not just. I was also utterly miserable and without focus. I took my meds and all I can do is sit here and try to distract myself now. That's what I get for attempting something normal.

Well, that sounds like a freakin' nightmare. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry about the pressures. I'm sorry about the voices. Don't feel shitty about making an attempt. An unsteady step is still a step. I sometimes feel shame when I try and fail. I'm trying to frame all "trying" as motion in the healthy direction. Peace

 

[Windhover]

This world neeeds a stand for peace and dialogue. Sending love to the world tonight. I'm feeling less dark after a run this afternoon. Getting used to being broken is going to take a long time.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

This world neeeds a stand for peace and dialogue. Sending love to the world tonight. I'm feeling less dark after a run this afternoon. Getting used to being broken is going to take a long time.

Exercise is so important for mental health. I'm watching a therapist on Youtube and she says one of the best responses to extreme stress is to exercise hard.

 

[KM76710]

I tried to do some schoolwork. By the time I was done, I found myself thinking, "I have to stop because I can't take this". I'm talking immense anxiety, because I have no idea what is actually happening in this course and what I'm supposed to do. I have no clue about hypotheses, sampling methods, and procedures. I couldn't choose my own topic. It's some boring sounding shit on misinformation and myth busting, whatever the fuck that means...and then I get to design an experiment around something I have no idea about, and hence, can't fully focus on. Somehow, I always end up pulling shit out of my ass, so I'm guessing that's what will happen. But if I fail this course, I'll never hear the end of it, even though I have more important things like my health to worry about. But that doesn't seem to matter. Not to my family. Money and financial stability is more important. Nevermind that I still have voices telling me what the fuck to do every day...that I'm trying really hard to ignore, by the way. What kind of financial stability can there possibly be if I can't even get that part normalized? Am I supposed to go to work with voices talking to me or how exactly is that supposed to work? The fact that I can barely even manage this course right now is a miracle, let alone a job. Anyway, I felt like complete shit after I made an attempt at it earlier. I don't know what it was, probably mostly anxiety, but not just. I was also utterly miserable and without focus. I took my meds and all I can do is sit here and try to distract myself now. That's what I get for attempting something normal.

I agree with @Dalida You can only try your best. At least you are giving the attempt when some never will. Do you best and do what is best for you is the way to be since most will not give that much for you.

 

[nicktheundoer]

This world neeeds a stand for peace and dialogue. Sending love to the world tonight. I'm feeling less dark after a run this afternoon. Getting used to being broken is going to take a long time.

Sorry seabird..but you will heal🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

I tried to do some schoolwork. By the time I was done, I found myself thinking, "I have to stop because I can't take this". I'm talking immense anxiety, because I have no idea what is actually happening in this course and what I'm supposed to do. I have no clue about hypotheses, sampling methods, and procedures. I couldn't choose my own topic. It's some boring sounding shit on misinformation and myth busting, whatever the fuck that means...and then I get to design an experiment around something I have no idea about, and hence, can't fully focus on. Somehow, I always end up pulling shit out of my ass, so I'm guessing that's what will happen. But if I fail this course, I'll never hear the end of it, even though I have more important things like my health to worry about. But that doesn't seem to matter. Not to my family. Money and financial stability is more important. Nevermind that I still have voices telling me what the fuck to do every day...that I'm trying really hard to ignore, by the way. What kind of financial stability can there possibly be if I can't even get that part normalized? Am I supposed to go to work with voices talking to me or how exactly is that supposed to work? The fact that I can barely even manage this course right now is a miracle, let alone a job. Anyway, I felt like complete shit after I made an attempt at it earlier. I don't know what it was, probably mostly anxiety, but not just. I was also utterly miserable and without focus. I took my meds and all I can do is sit here and try to distract myself now. That's what I get for attempting something normal.

I'm sorry..idk what to say..I just wish you'd feel hopeful..hugs🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

A little sad. We were supposed to have guests this afternoon, so I made the house presentable and prepared biscuits and tea for their arrival, then fell asleep in the living room, waiting for them for 3 hours, while they changed their plans and will come late in the evening. I could've done something nicer with my day.

 

[nicktheundoer]

scared and very uneasy. a significant part of the state is either under a shelter in place order or use extreme caution if you go out. of course this whole thing started with a man that had significant mental health issues and wasn't properly treated. i hope they catch the guy soon so we can feel at least a little safe

mike

I hope nothing bad happens..don't worry Mike..my prayers with you..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Disgusted, sad, and helpless. Many people went out last night for some fun, socializing and routine activity and never made it home. And now all these families are in shock and pain from senseless loss.

😔😔may their souls rest in peace..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Racing thoughts

Hugsss🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Talk to me.
Tell me that I am very pretty. Make me feel pretty.
Tell me that I will feel OK soon and this feeling will pass.TT

Well, God has made everyone beautiful..😊😊

 

[AvidFan]

Awake. Another pre-7am Saturday wake up. I did go to bed early so got 7 hours but wasn't going to get back to sleep. Clocks go back tonight so can go to bed an hour early or something. Dark nights have arrived (it was dark when I woke up!) 😱

 

[Astrid78]

Sorry to have missed it Astrid78—to have misread & misinterpreted things & you, I am sorry. Take care~

 

[Holding my breath]

Used, pathetic, abused, useless.

 

[Pebble mouse]

Used, pathetic, abused, useless.

So sorry

 

[AvidFan]

Used, pathetic, abused, useless.

 

[Dalida]

Used, pathetic, abused, useless.

I'm so sorry.

 

[Windhover]

hug @Holding my breath