How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

wondering, considering options

if something is medically necessary to be corrected, is it suicide to decline treatment?
there is little for me to look forward after recovery

peace

i have asked myself the same question. if i stop certain things is it suicide or letting nature take it's course. if you believe in god or other supreme being then you can go to church leadership to discuss it. as for me if something like cancer or advanced heart disease happened i would consider my odds of survival and some quaality of life after. in most cases we should probably try.

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

not great. picked up a bug which made me appreciate my bathroom lol. mood is still good. it will take a lot more than a bug to get to me lol

mike

 

[AvidFan]

not great. picked up a bug which made me appreciate my bathroom lol. mood is still good. it will take a lot more than a bug to get to me lol

mike

I do admire you and your strength of character 💚

 

[DowntheRabbitHole]

What is the point? If I'm gone, life will go on. Time without purpose is a prison. Just staring at the walls all day every day. I've stopped trying to be part of life. I see no sense in it.

 

[Aurelia]

Can our suffering be beautiful in a certain light? I think so. Maybe that sounds odd to some, but there's something beautiful about our vulnerability and need for love and affection. Something beautiful even about our sorrow.

 

[1964dodge]

I do admire you and your strength of character 💚

thank you.

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Can our suffering be beautiful in a certain light? I think so. Maybe that sounds odd to some, but there's something beautiful about our vulnerability and need for love and affection. Something beautiful even about our sorrow.

in a way i agree with that. like i told someone before : our life is like a tepestry, pull one thread and it's not the same tapestry. i don't like physical or emotional pain but it is part of my life. everything i go through good or bad makes up that tapestry. do i wish i never had pain in my life. ever? yes of course. i have learned that my chronic pain is part of me, it's a part that brings out the strength in my character. if i never had any chronic pain/illnesses i would be a different person. a person that was weak and with less empathy. since i like my life and pain is part of it you are right in a way my pain is beautiful

mike....

 

[cymbele]

Kind of insecure tonight. Five years on a project with a great team and in June I will be not with the group. But I won’t be unemployed and close to a year for optional retirement. I was hoping to work with this team until optional retirement and then go part time. I have 3 years to go until I can collect ss so part time work will help with finances. I will have to see if it’s possible. But a little bit sad.

 

[1964dodge]

What is the point? If I'm gone, life will go on. Time without purpose is a prison. Just staring at the walls all day every day. I've stopped trying to be part of life. I see no sense in it.

maybe things could get better in the future. there is always hope if we are alive and keep trying

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Kind of insecure tonight. Five years on a project with a great team and in June I will be not with the group. But I won’t be unemployed and close to a year for optional retirement. I was hoping to work with this team until optional retirement and then go part time. I have 3 years to go until I can collect ss so part time work will help with finances. I will have to see if it’s possible. But a little bit sad.

i hope you can work it out. do you get a retirement benefit from the company as well when you retire?

mike...

 

[DowntheRabbitHole]

maybe things could get better in the future. there is always hope if we are alive and keep trying

mike....

Thanks, Mike, but I don't have any hope. I stopped trying a long time ago. I wish I was dead.

 

[Livelife]

What is the point? If I'm gone, life will go on. Time without purpose is a prison. Just staring at the walls all day every day. I've stopped trying to be part of life. I see no sense in it.

's. I wish I knew something positive to say. All I can do is send you a bunch of hugs.

 

[1964dodge]

Thanks, Mike, but I don't have any hope. I stopped trying a long time ago. I wish I was dead.

i don't remember why but if you wanted to talk about it privately feel free to use my inbox. try to remembe at one point i had no hope and wanted to die. i still suffer the physical issues, which only got a little better but my mental health improved a lot.

mike...

 

[cymbele]

i hope you can work it out. do you get a retirement benefit from the company as well when you retire?

mike...

No just a match into a 401k plan. I just like what I am doing with the people I have grown to like. But it’s only a job. Maybe I go an extra year and retire ft early. I don’t have to figure it out yet. But soon.

 

[MisterBGone]

I don't have a car. Besides idc what anyone says, it's different for women than for men. Women get treated like absolute morons in hardware stores and mechanics. We are patronized and talked down too like our little selves are just too fragile. Also why can't I just feel alone? I am alone, I would know this better than anyone because it's me and only me that's here.

Only angle I was coming from here, Astrid-was one of "problem-solving." And so more, reaching into the heart of the matter/manner, or 'issue,' (at large!). So, in other words: I didn't mean to want to denigrate, or down-play your experiences, now or in the past. But to rather, see how I might help you to improve upon the situation--as it were. For instance, I'm guessing this has been going on for quite some time with You - & by that, I mean the men and the way in which they have mistreated you, and others who share your like chromosomes (sorry clicked the wrong two freaking keys again and so now am having to re-type it all & in A MUCH MORE SHITTY FASHION - I APOLOGIZE 7 THANK YOU VERY MUCH MF'ER.?)!* sorry, now where was i?? ? So with how you've been disrespected, and discredited, and disregarded--& by the way, my sister, can change the breaks on her car, or yours, no prob' / just as little 'side-hobby,' & she's even smaller than me, not that that makes much dif`/it's just~ (dang, almost did it again. . . ) So I do understand, that you have had to be put through a great deal of mess(es) in order to bring you to, or reach a level with which you now sit, and speak. But here is where I am coming from, Madam- & that is/or being: one in which you do something about it; & that is to invoke or evoke in you, from within you, a 'change.' & that is necessary in order for you to not be sitting here - in 5, or 10, 15-20 however many yrs. it is you plan on to live & still be saying or repeating the same things. . . So yo* OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ocant do this anjgt mk,moi,prel.ksrv4
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[HappyKitty]

So much anxiety figuring out what I can eat but I've been experimenting it so glad my dietician finally address Im able to be on a low fibre diet thing.😺

 

[1964dodge]

Only angle I was coming from here, Astrid-was one of "problem-solving." And so more, reaching into the heart of the matter/manner, or 'issue,' (at large!). So, in other words: I didn't mean to want to denigrate, or down-play your experiences, now or in the past. But to rather, see how I might help you to improve upon the situation--as it were. For instance, I'm guessing this has been going on for quite some time with You - & by that, I mean the men and the way in which they have mistreated you, and others who share your like chromosomes (sorry clicked the wrong two freaking keys again and so now am having to re-type it all & in A MUCH MORE SHITTY FASHION - I APOLOGIZE 7 THANK YOU VERY MUCH MF'ER.?)!* sorry, now where was i?? ? So with how you've been disrespected, and discredited, and disregarded--& by the way, my sister, can change the breaks on her car, or yours, no prob' / just as little 'side-hobby,' & she's even smaller than me, not that that makes much dif`/it's just~ (dang, almost did it again. . . ) So I do understand, that you have had to be put through a great deal of mess(es) in order to bring you to, or reach a level with which you now sit, and speak. But here is where I am coming from, Madam- & that is/or being: one in which you do something about it; & that is to invoke or evoke in you, from within you, a 'change.' & that is necessary in order for you to not be sitting here - in 5, or 10, 15-20 however many yrs. it is you plan on to live & still be saying or repeating the same things. . . So yo* OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ocant do this anjgt mk,moi,prel.ksrv4
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i'm amazed she can change brakes. can she change brake shoes and pads or just pads. i made sure all three of my kids knew basic emergency repairs before they got their license even my daughter. your sister knowing how to fix cars can prevent her from getting ripped off by a mechanic

mike....

 

[Honeymoon]

In the year 2023, I experienced complete boredom for the first time in my life.
I couldn't use my time the way I wanted to. I couldn't lead the life I imagined.
Can't bear the thought of it being like that again this year, and it will be if nothing changes.

I lost precious time that will never come back, all because someone decided to play with my life.

 

[nicktheundoer]

Y

What is the point? If I'm gone, life will go on. Time without purpose is a prison. Just staring at the walls all day every day. I've stopped trying to be part of life. I see no sense in it.

You existing itself is a purpose..you breathing itself God cherishes it..Hugss🫂🫂🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Thanks, Mike, but I don't have any hope. I stopped trying a long time ago. I wish I was dead.

I know how you feel..I gave up hope too..but a new hope has arrived for me..my longings have changed so did my hope..Now I hope for God and loving him always..Ik things might be difficult but im okay..God will help me and I will get through it..praying for you that your hope gets renewed or a new hope might be formed for you