How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[PrincessPure]

I want to learn to be a mature and peaceful person. I have came such a far way, but i dont think i ever handled anything in a mature way.
If there is just one thing I have learnt from living abroad in such a diverse environment is that age doesnt equal maturity. I met so many 40 year olds being such bitter people while there was a 22 year old on the other side of the story handling everything with grace.

I know people might not take this literally, but it is. I feel like i am the same person i wasat 12. I hit puberty at 12 and ever since then the only physical change i had was to grow like what, 5 cm???? Even my face is the same. And even worse, I feel like my whole mentality and personality hasnt changed. Before puberty, I was a much more social kid with confidence. Right at 6th grade, the anxiety hit. Lack of confidence began, and so there it was. Forever since then.

 

[PrincessPure]

They say, dont let kids under 18 touch their face through plastic surgery. By the time they are 30, they will embrace their looks. I did do my nose as a teen, and i dont regret it. So, its been quite a few years since im a legal adult. Why hasnt anything changed???? Im still as insecure as ever. And i dont see no magic happening at 30 tbh.
Same for being able to get over relatinships, or cooling down when things go wrong.
I dont feel like maturity is in my nature and its sad.

 

[corneredrat]

I feel strange. Things are so bad I don't even care at this point. My country is a madhouse and tomorrow begins the dreaded manhunt. I went for groceries today and there was only several men outside. And it's the middle of the day. Men don't go outside and it will be even worse. Truckers quit. Food delivery guys quit. Many people quit and go into hiding. I myself will ask my aunt if I can live with her for a while. And the cherry on top - electricity 'rationing'...
I feel some kind of schadenfreude. Now everyone is fucked, not just me. Now everyone will be broke, not just me. My country is done for and things are bound to be bad for everyone.

 

[1964dodge]

Worried. My sister needs me to co-sign a lease agreement for a new apartment in order to get one. She needs a certain income level to get one. I am worried that it will affect our relationship if she doesn’t have enough money to pay for rent and I have to pay. On the other hand I can’t let her and my niece go homeless. So I will have to trust that it will all work out. But I am worried.

i have co-signed for kids before and it has generally worked out. it is very important to lay out expectations and remedies for default in a contract which you will both sign. i know t's family but it is much easier to both of you in the long run, and less chances of family fallout.

one very impoertant item to put in the contract is to say that if you give them relief on the contract you still have the right to enforce the contract. and most important is they are responsible for any expense even legal expenses. good luck in the kind thing you're doing

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Sorry you had such a crap day yesterday Mike. How was your cancer screening? @1964dodge

they are almost sure i have a chest infevtion. i am prone to them so i know the routine. a round of antibiotics and prednisone, and a followup cat scan in 3 months. it is a pain in the a$$ but a lot better than cancer. thank you for asking

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

doing ok i guess

mike

 

[AvidFan]

Doing Ok today. Last night I ate an entire pizza (normally leave 2 slices but had only had a bowl of muesli in 16 hours) then went to bed and slept the sleep of the dead. Woke up today feeling more positive. Not much on, and tonight I'm going out. I've started putting more barriers around work, as my brain usually defaults to constant work, which isn't good - I'll end up checking emails 50 times a day, 48 of those times there's nothing needs doing. Very often some artillery round will explode in my email inbox and I've just read it late evening when I can do nothing about it. Or I'll see a well paying project come in from my remote job and just feel disappointed because I don't have the time or energy to work on it. So now, I am not at work unless I officially start my timer, and my time target is to do as LITTLE as possible of the email checking bullshit. This is how it should be, but I usually end up slipping and checking emails all the time, and if I toted it up, I'd be spending literally hours opening empty inboxes and closing again, which is draining in itself.

Tonight I'm going out to a gig. My friend got in touch and said the friend she was going with couldn't make it any more so would I like to go. It's not really my cup of tea music wise - but it's something different and I get to go out for free, so I'll take that! At least it's not at Coop Live 😂😂😂

 

[AvidFan]

I feel strange. Things are so bad I don't even care at this point. My country is a madhouse and tomorrow begins the dreaded manhunt. I went for groceries today and there was only several men outside. And it's the middle of the day. Men don't go outside and it will be even worse. Truckers quit. Food delivery guys quit. Many people quit and go into hiding. I myself will ask my aunt if I can live with her for a while. And the cherry on top - electricity 'rationing'...
I feel some kind of schadenfreude. Now everyone is fucked, not just me. Now everyone will be broke, not just me. My country is done for and things are bound to be bad for everyone.

I am sorry and my heart goes out to you. I wish I could say something to help. I hope your plan works out.

 

[puffymilk]

Anxious. I don't know what to think.

 

[AvidFan]

Anxious. I don't know what to think.

 

[Pebble mouse]

A bit stressed out. I sold my old TV forgetting to log out of my streaming accounts. So for the last 30 minutes or so I have been logging out on all devices. That has stressed me and getting stressed like that can trigger an episode. I hope I will be OK.

 

[AvidFan]

A bit stressed out. I sold my old TV forgetting to log out of my streaming accounts. So for the last 30 minutes or so I have been logging out on all devices. That has stressed me and getting stressed like that can trigger an episode. I hope I will be OK.

That's easily done. Am sure it will be fine. Try not to worry ❤️

 

[Pebble mouse]

That's easily done. Am sure it will be fine. Try not to worry ❤️

Thanks @AvidFan. I feel OK now.

 

[AvidFan]

Bit anxious but maybe some of it is excitement. My friend's friend couldn't make a music gig so I got invited to go with the spare ticket. It's not my main music bag at all, but it will be nice to be around people and see a performance, and see my friend. I always get a bit anxious going out - will I get there on time, will I be OK getting home, will I have access to drinking water/toilets etc LOL. It's so much easier staying at home. But it's a lovely evening by the looks of it so hopefully I will have a good time 😃

 

[LumberJack]

Anxious, busy and overwhelmed 😬

 

[1964dodge]

Anxious. I don't know what to think.

 

[1964dodge]

Anxious, busy and overwhelmed 😬

 

[1964dodge]

pretty much ok. the doctor at my lung speacilist is a moron and did everything but called me a liar. he said my symptons didn't match my cat scans. and even though he called in my prescriptions last night ( at a pharmacy i haven't used in over a decade, and i told them my pharmacy yesterday ) and this morning he called it a small case of pneumonia. yesterday he said it was a chest infection. when the cancer screening doctor called today said it was a chest infection and was appalled and furious how my lung specialist treated me. i have had at least 4 or 5 chest infections since 2018 and i know what they feel like. like i told them do the easiest first. now i'm going to have to have 3 or 4 new doctors lol.

mike.....

 

[Inanimate]

Sorrowful, almost needy. Better to just do something to occupy this dreadful abundance of time, no matter how useless it seems, than to persist in being bogged down by my emotions.

 

[SillyOldBear]

pretty much ok. the doctor at my lung speacilist is a moron and did everything but called me a liar. he said my symptons didn't match my cat scans. and even though he called in my prescriptions last night ( at a pharmacy i haven't used in over a decade, and i told them my pharmacy yesterday ) and this morning he called it a small case of pneumonia. yesterday he said it was a chest infection. when the cancer screening doctor called today said it was a chest infection and was appalled and furious how my lung specialist treated me. i have had at least 4 or 5 chest infections since 2018 and i know what they feel like. like i told them do the easiest first. now i'm going to have to have 3 or 4 new doctors lol.

mike.....

Damn, how I hate moronic doctors. Or non-caring doctors. Sounds like you deal with them too. Hope you find some GOOD new ones.

I just had the chance to rate my recent appt with a new doctor. I made it a point to voice my disappointment in some things. But also was careful to point out some good things about it.