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Feeling horrible about work. I made a mistake but the fix is so confusing I asked for help and the other person got confused also and is going on vacation so I’m feeling bad. I’m not good with mechanical issues. I know that. But onward I go but I have to admit the mistake on Monday and not happy about that.
but 3 more years until I retire if I can get there.
 

Aurelia

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Embarrassed af. My roommate, who is also my sister, found an Amazon package for me on the front porch. So she decided to bring it in. I was not expecting her to be home that early. I had been careless and left some… items out in my room and left to run errands. Well, she decided to drop it on my bed, and I don’t have a door lock (this will change ASAP). Soooooo she ended up coming face to face with a whole assortment of things that I would have not wanted her to see. 😳 Including my personal laptop with an incriminating website displayed. Yikes!

She hasn’t mentioned it and I don’t think she will, but if she does I will apologize and admit that I should not have left all that stuff out. I didn’t want her to see that stuff because she has a far more rigid/conservative attitude towards things that I am much more relaxed about.

Problem is that she saw it, I know she saw it, and she knows that I am aware of this faux-pas. So I am sitting here guessing what she is thinking about this. I don’t see any point in worrying; the damage has been done. I can’t read anyone’s mind, either. I just feel like a total ass 🫏. I will get over it, but this is the most embarrassing moment in a long time.
Is it possible that maybe she didn't pay any attention and simply dropped the package on the bed and left? Or maybe even if she did see it she simply decided to ignore it?
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
kind of tired. Therapy session was good, at first, then I realised it shows how the way I am often hurts people. I don't want to give up, but this sort of therapy shows the world would be a ncer place if I wasn't existing.
I think you should take it as constructive criticism and nothing more. The world would definitely not be better without you. You're meant to be in it. Your perspective on this is leading you astray.
 

Auri

🎸🎶Metal Star🎵🥁
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So it took one day for me to start worrying about my parents again. My dad comes back home drunk all the time apparently, my mom is keeping some secrets too, and complains to me about him... He barely talks to me, my mom is super clingy and sweet to me.

Why are they doing this to themselves? :(

I can't take this.
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
This may be a reach, but how about the paperwork from the hospital? Would you still have any of that?
Perhaps it's in your medical chart?
It's reasonable you wouldn't remember this, being to busy with birthing a human and all, so I hope you're not being to hard on yourself or feeling guilty. Sending mom hugs
Lol, thanks for the hugs Astrid. I called the township which directed me to the office of vital statistics. I was feeling a little guilty tbh, but it was 30 years ago, jeez. I hope you and your family are doing well.
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
So it took one day for me to start worrying about my parents again. My dad comes back home drunk all the time apparently, my mom is keeping some secrets too, and complains to me about him... He barely talks to me, my mom is super clingy and sweet to me.

Why are they doing this to themselves? :(

I can't take this.
I think it's only natural for you to worry or care about your parents. Sending luv to you. Habits are hard to break, for them. *console
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
Feeling horrible about work. I made a mistake but the fix is so confusing I asked for help and the other person got confused also and is going on vacation so I’m feeling bad. I’m not good with mechanical issues. I know that. But onward I go but I have to admit the mistake on Monday and not happy about that.
but 3 more years until I retire if I can get there.
You're only human and allowed to make a mistake. I bet the next few years will fly by too.
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
its just another round of hopelessness and helplessness when sinking in grief and denial about health condition over and over, got me ruminerating abt it. On the bright side, I'll be flying to Eu this Sat. ✈️ I havent got time to breathe, I hope the travel will calm me down or I'm able to regulate anywhere or sth.
Happy and safe travels HappyKitty. It's great to hear you've got the bright side. I'm sorry for you dealing with health problems and struggling with the grief. Are you going to watch the Olympics, if it's okay to ask?

hug
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
So it took one day for me to start worrying about my parents again. My dad comes back home drunk all the time apparently, my mom is keeping some secrets too, and complains to me about him... He barely talks to me, my mom is super clingy and sweet to me.

Why are they doing this to themselves? :(

I can't take this.
Oh this is very difficult to even think about @Auri . I'm sorry. Words don't really touch stuff like this.

Alcohol had a similar effect on my family of origin, and it seems the damage cascades all over the place.

You are an amazing person. Reach out to us for whatever we can do to help.
 
Like a failure because I chose to shoot dope for 11 years instead of establishing a good career and learning to drive. Now I have to start all over and get my life together as if I were only 18 years old again. I'm behind in life.
You’ve accomplished quite a bit since I’ve met you. Breaking old habits and establishing new ones that are more conducive to success isn’t easy when you’re at rock bottom and can’t seem to imagine being anywhere else. It takes courage and perseverance to break free from what you’ve thought was your place in the world.
 

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